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blinks. i think i locked in a little too hard today bc now im like fucking starving but i can’t eat anything that will actually sate my hunger bc it’s way too late and i wont be able to eat dinner if i do that

also, i think the next time i get a message where someone is trying to get my attention and doesn’t immediately get to the point, im going to have a heart attack and die bc i always assume im in trouble for no good reason-

can my stomach PLEASE stop making weird sounds

this is becoming a constant problem, i would like the mere thought of eating to stop making me feel horrible 24/7

i know i’m probably just being dramatic, but it rly does feel like my body is trying to shut down on me recently

why does eating make me feel so heavy and gross and bad, i would like to not feel like that-

holy fuck, i’m so tired

this is bc i feel just slightly tired and sick rn btw

im presumably fine, im just insane

me vs my constant fear of just dropping dead

vibes are weird. feel like i’m forgetting smth.

fascinated by however tf my body works. why can’t i sleep??? i dont think i Actually Slept when i laid down earlier, it would’ve been two hours max even if i did, so Why Can’t I Sleep 🫠🫠🫠

brooooo, i wanna be someone’s stupid boyfriend

goddamn, i am. so tired
im definitely going to bed after i eat, i cannot stay up today, idk what it is but im exhausted

i am,, so hungry
and i’m also tired
i should not be laying down, i do not trust myself to not fall asleep rn

eugh, nana asked if i was gonna be up late bc she took out the stuff for dinner a lil late and i said yes but i am not feeling great- i honestly just wanna sleep already 😭😭

ate too much and now i feel bad </3

hmmm. overwhelming Bad Feeling
feeling of impending doom

i need. a nap (person that has not gone to sleep yet)

THIS FANDOM IS A PRISON, I HATE U PPL, EW EW EW GROSS

i need to sleep for a million years, ugh

can i PLEASE learn how to sleep at a normal time. why is it 10 am and i still haven’t managed to fall asleep.

eugh i need to stop existing

me vs that fuckass popular ship that i hate

oh gods. so apparently my aunt and cousin will be here for christmas this year. where the fuck do these mfs intend to put a christmas tree, we haven’t done that since i was like. in middle school? not to mention the cats,,,, gods, this is gonna be annoying, isn’t it.

(person that has actually screamed at least twice today out of pure annoyance and frustration)

deciding i should not be allowed to talk to anyone until i chill tf out !!! the people do not need to know abt my violent urges!!! or just how bad i am at emotional regulation !!

was gonna read a fanfic update to lessen The Horrors (distract myself) and it was actually a hiatus notice, i cannot make this shit up

all i want is to self destruct and isolate myself for the next ten years

gods i want to be alive less and less every single day