♤ ▪︎ LOSE

still a peak user though damn

truly a lose moment

thus i forget this axc exists lmfao

im the worst person to have an alt. i forget that i am allowed to complain about things

CHEST HURT TOES FROZEN BRAIN SLUSH

so as a solution im drowning it out with bubblegum kpop

idfk why im just :(

im sad

i miss cipher

new (lazy) layout lmfao

never thought id be begging to do unpaid labor wtf

and i cant even do my unpaid work because theres no one in officeeeee

im so fucking BORED. ALWAYS.

everything is so Boring right now and music is the only salve

ok i actually need to sleep

25 though. what the fuck. i swear we Just celebrated his 21st with shitty alcohol in the cemetery.

i suppose i feel less sad, and more empathetic for my mother. seeing her struggle is genuinely painful, like that's her best friend And her son.

still :/ an older brother wouldve been interesting

if he lived i probably wouldnt have been born.... what a terrifying concept

and my brothers birthday... i mean i never met the fucker - he died before i was born.

sucks though.

and i fucking guess ill never see her again what the hell

i dont even know how to react to my aunt dying . like i love her but .... i dont think ive seen her in over 5 years

i dont have a high enough EQ to deal with my aunts death And my dead brothers upcoming 25th birthday rn

#Anaxa Ha ha ha ha ha!

why do i have self confidence when did i build this

tbr it doesnt make it any less valid. that shit is fluid and a spectrum

oh well. as long as im not interested ill keep the label

and ive been depressed since i was like 8 so really who can tell

i do not think i have ever felt Horny man

todays episode of: am i actually asexual OR is it just my depression and meds?