Thank you

... Deshalb bin ich noch da, um mich nicht französisch zu verabschieden. Oder weil ich schwach und inkonsequent bin. Einfach in Luft auflösen ist etwas was ich nie mehr zu ertragen versuchen möchte.

... Ich habe 6 Monate lang daran gekiefelt, aber niemals in Frage gestellt, dass ich ihm in die Augen schauen und die Meinung sagen muss, koste es was es wolle. Auch Beziehungen habe ich nie beendet ohne einen ehrlichen Grund zu geben, so unangenehm es auch ist. ...

Die Stelzenmüller hat mich drüben geblockt und das hier wieder getan. In beiden Fällen kann ich weder Grund noch Anlass erkennen. Das tut man nicht. Ich habe ein Problem mit jemandem gehabt den ich kenne seit ich 13 war. Es ist jetzt besser aber noch nicht aus der Welt. ...

Drüben ist indiskutabel. Aber wenn ich vor der Wahl stünde: Gleich sterben oder den Rest meines Lebens nur noch über Bluesky kommunizieren, dann wähle ich die erste Option.

I want to get out of here. You shouldn't follow me and I shouldn't follow you, being atomised is the safest way of existing here. Qualities of any kind are dangerous.

I have no secrets: bsky.app/profile/moeb...

Anyways, if I do dissappear it is not your fault, you have always been a pleasure.

I want to leave. You shouldn't follow me and I shouldn't follow you, being completely isolated is the safest strategy.

bsky.app/profile/moeb...

If I do manage to leave it's not your fault, you've always been a pleasure.

Ich finde keine Spuren, dass Stelzenmüller in den letzten 2 Tagen überhaupt online gewesen wäre.

Ich bin raus hier. Mir reicht's. Falls es jemand wissen will habe ich das unten beschrieben, ich habe keine Geheimnisse. Jedenfalls geht es auf mich.

bsky.app/profile/moeb...

Außerdem hat mich zwischenzeitlich Constanze Stelzenmüller schon wieder geblockt, wieder habe ich keine Ahnung warum.

I wrote everything down in tedious detail, devoid of style and in a pathetic voice:

bsky.app/profile/moeb...

I've written it down in detail:

bsky.app/profile/moeb...

... That I can't even apologise hurts me the most. This is an evil place. The other place is obviously evil, but this one isn't a solution either.

END

... My interlocutor who I think is a subscriber to said list vanished suddenly and without a trace. Probably thinking I had broken my word and initiated the block out of a whim. ...

... I made an effort to see the other person as a human and to extend my hand and to remain honest to and about myself at the same time. I suspect two hours into the conversation a third person discovered me in a conversation that was a week old and put my name on a blocking recommendation list. ...

... I don't get kicks out of the millionth person noting that the orange man let six more hours pass without displaying any redeeming qualities, or remarking that religion can appear problematic.

I am really hurt. ...

... Meaningful relations are bridges built across differences. I don't want to look at people who are exactly like me, or at photos of cats, dogs, stars, or food, finished or in preparation. ...

... Two or three might disagree with me that I am more scared of Elon Musk than I am of Laura Loomer. Concerning the remaining two or three lists I don't have the foggiest idea. I also don't really care. I might have ended up hurting my friend who doesn't deserve to be hurt. ...

... I found out I am on seven list of blocking recommendations. I've only been active here for a week or two. All seven are curated by people I have never been in contact with and who I cannot ask because they have blocked me. Two might be motivated by the Israel situation. ...

... I had not memorised my interlocutor's complicated screen name. I spent 6 hours trying to find out what had happened and to find my friend so that I would be able to apologise in case I had said something wrong. My last answer had been a teeny tiny bit flippant after all. ...

... I promised to read or watch anything that would explain my friend's viewpoint and in the worst of cases not to respond, only if I thought it really intolerable. My friend was very gracious with me and we exchanged follows as what I interpret as a sign of mutual respect. And then I was alone. ...

... My interlocutor - I dare say my friend - talked about having had a very bad time recently and that it would have been better to use fewer invectives. ...

... I tried very hard to not be insulting or condescending and to admit that there are many things I do not know including what situation the other person is in. ...

Last night I was in the middle of a conversation with someone. It started very tense and then got better. I don't want to repeat what was said, I don't want to paint myself in the right and my interlocutor in the wrong. ...

... and even relationships ended by anonymous block list maintainers who do not necessarily know what they arre doing, without prior warning or subsequent appeal.

So, this is not working for me and I am sorry and it is not your fault,

... If you are not you run the risk of being placed on a block list by someone you have never interacted with and then people who are new here and who also have no idea who the maintainer of the block list is will subscribe to those lists, leading to conversations ...

... never to engage with people who have different views, and - God forbid - never hold any controversial opinions yourself. Unless you're a Big Cheese in which case you can do whatever you want. ...

I don't know for a fact why you get blocked, but much like in a dictatorship here on bluesky the safest way to survive is not to form any bonds, not to interact, not to be seen in public, not to have opinions especially on controversial topics, ...

On this platform I cannot follow you anymore. Every follow and every engagement raises the risk of me showing up on a block list.