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Tomorrow's my second interview for a job that I would be really excited about. I'm so anxious about fucking it up and failing again.

I can't stay in my current job, I'm so worried about being stuck.

that's very fair - I can't listen to anything without doing sth else at the side bc simply not enough stimulation for my brain xD

I started listening while panic crafting my Whitemarked gear for CoM (because @trollpogo.bsky.social seized the opportunity xD I was very skeptical at first but damn, it captured me with the end of the second season - still got a finish it tho)

It took me several tries - having a big crafting project helps bc you can just have it running in the background while doing things

something something 2022 xD

That was surreal

IT IS 2025 MY DUDES

no, honestly - just slick your hair back and you're there xD

interview botched. oh well.

sent out two more applications today and I got a first job interview tomorrow. ahhhhh.

yep, that was my reaction too

Was ein soziales Modell! (/Sarkasmus aus)

Aber sie haben ja an einer "flexiblen" Lösung gearbeitet. Wir dürfen auch in Wochen, in denen wir eh Samstagsschicht haben, unseren Ausgleichstag opfern und da arbeiten. Und sie haben den Zeitrahmen erweitert! Wir dürfen diese Schicht "flexibel" zwischen 6 und 20 Uhr nehmen!

Immer wenn ich denke, dass dieser Job nicht beschissener werden kann, überzeugen sie mich eines besseren. Für den Rest des Jahres haben sie uns jetzt Mehrarbeit angeordnet. Im Klartext bedeutet das: Jeder muss drei extra Samstage ohne Ausgleichstag übernehmen.

got over my rejection anxiety today and sent out two applications. don't really care for the positions but anything is an improvement at this point.

Knights of Guinevere being a hate letter to Disney coming out the week Disney made sure everyone fucking hates them is brilliant timing. talk about being made for the moment.

Der Sinn „die AntiFa“ zu verbieten ist es übrigens nicht „die AntiFa“ zu verbieten, sondern Mittel in die Hand zu bekommen gegen jede einzelne Person, die einem nicht passt, vorzugehen mit der Behauptung sie sei Teil „der AntiFa“.

I’m earnestly done living in this sexist, racist, homophobic, transphobic, ableist culture. Not even for myself. I’m tired seeing so many people who have so much they want to give be ground down or killed. So many of us just want to give love. Fuck this poisoned culture. We all deserve better.

it feels great being the person everyone forgets about, really gotta say

external screaming.

Having to stare at the female version of Theo at work is truly fucking me up more than staring at my deadname would. I hate everything.

month 3 of this job and I am seriously considering quitting.

Search LibGen, the Pirated-Books Database That Meta Used to Train AI Millions of books and scientific papers are captured in the collection’s current iteration.

Just a reminder to check for your name in this list of books that OpenAI trained from. If your name is there, they probably owe you several thousand dollars.

OpenAI cried that if everyone eligible author files, the company will go bankrupt, so I'm alerting every author I have ever spoken to.

being in the same circles as a recurring character from your nightmares fucking sucks, damn

me vs. the temptation to try a B.A. once more

(aka I miss feeling like my brain was getting used for something other than a horrible job that drains my soul)

a group of raccoons are playing in a pool . Alt: a group of raccoons are playing in a pool .

oh daaaaamn

yes

instructions unclear: spent 60€ at the fabric store

tired and sad.

maybe getting some shiny fabric would fix me...

hello darkness, my old friend

it is spiral time again