precious stinkyboy

i’ve fully unlocked a part of myself that cannot be changed. taking hormones or not.
and that my friends feels fucking gooooood 😌

i know it’s a myth and not real but i did get kind of scared that going off T would make me suddenly “feel less masculine”
mainly bc they feed you shit like taking hormones can “make you feel different”
but i think ultimately i started T, started living authentically, and now

no one is ever fully healed and that doesn’t have to stop us from living our lives along side our grief

so that we may be happy when it comes we must also allow ourselves to feel sad when it comes

it’s tomato sammy summer babyyyy

just remembered that the best is yet to come 😌

i be fw one of these types as well i cannot take him seriously sometimes im like dawg you’re only 33 😂

goddamn the sting of loneliness and the yearning 😩 it is so painful
i am trying to turn my grief into gratitude

the internet is lonely

i’m sick of the internet hiding my friends and only showing me monetized bullshit and influencers and ads

i just realized i had 4 outfit changes today 😳
one for my inspection, one for work, one for a bike ride, and one for the gym
i may be an athlete but i am still a diva 💅

im fr like an athlete bc i went for a bike ride AND to the gym today
who is heeee 😏

i want a big ass salad - tis the season

i thought maybe i could try going without T but after only a couple weeks there is clearly something Wrong With Me i almost cried bc my friends didn’t say something nice enough to me 🫠
y’know what, fuck it… gimmie my damn juice 💉🧃

what if I schedule top surgery and don’t think twice about it? 👀
it’s like how ppl buy concert tickets and then figure out how to make it work after the fact

why did 2016 feel so good? i swear i knew it was the good ole days while it was happening

i’m trying i’m trying i’m trying to get past this and do something to help myself
but i am so depressed
i am so sleepy
i only want to lay down
my brain isn’t working

i’m okay! getting better for sure. i was able to do a few hours of work the other day 🥹

i wonder if he hurts in the same ways that i do
if we’re both just not saying the things we’re feeling
or if this is all one sided

i don’t need to know

raindrop in the eye or mouth gotta be one of the worst of all time

ooo i really wanna go play on the swings

this lover boy shit be hard and tragic

do not send me a heart emoji, a selfie, or do the bare minimum for me or else i WILL fall in love 😤

looking happier!! we love to see it 🥰

trimmed my beard a little too short on accident do not fucking text 😩

if i am nothing i am a lover.
i love people! i love animals! i love nature! art, movies, food, singing, playing!
it’s all lovey dovey for me over here, not sorry.

why did they put an egg beater in my head and scrample my brain 🤨

gonna do a big hand exercise and see if i can do chop sticks!!!!

haircut haircut haircut !!!

i’m struggling a lot with reading 😔 i had speech therapy today and the exercises she gave me were so hard i almost cried bc i was so defeated. it takes me so long to spell a text and double check it to make sure it makes sense and im still fucking it up.
i miss my life 💔

oh teddy swims is so cutie pie

love it when a man says “pal” like those are fighting words