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don't know who the fandom fave is of the dateable characters, but I just married Abigail the other day :3

I'm gonna do my nails for thanksgiving either tomorrow or Wednesday night (lots of fall colors) but I wish I had something to do now like play a game or smth but I'm away from home ATM and mobile games aren't really fun so

at least stardew valley is fun

tired... trying to get back into drawing and writing but the block i've been going through the last year and a half still isnt going anywhere...

want to go home to my computer...

gonna start doing halloween manicures soon i think and i think i wanna mess around with putting stickers on my nails, if not experimenting with faux gemstones. so if anyone knows of any good dollar store halloween-ish nail art stuff, you should lmk

if its too early for me to have bought this pumpkin spice candle at cvs yesterday then u can blame whoever looked @ the calendar between july and oct and decided there was no fun to be had between wooo america day and spooky scary skeleton candy day. its halloween 4 me as soon as the fireworks stop.

also i wrote quite a bit of it sleep deprived and at least for right now i dont hate it although even if i do i end up hating it, that isnt necessarily indicative of its quality. i judge my magnum opuses with the same level of mean girl cuntiness as i do my trash work.

im not even less depressed either, like?? if anything i'm more depressed?? why writing skill come back now??

doesnt write fic for a year and a half because of a depression based writers block - cancel all my fics because i'm convinced i'm never gonna write again - just did an allnighter where i wrote like 5k words in about 5 hrs.

wtf.

updated the sims 4 and now the household i was playing with wont load 😡 get your shit together, Electronic Arts.

also i have cats, so red string boards are prolly outta the question, lest i want my insane UT/DR ramblings to get torn apart

it would just b really nice 2 finally know what the fuck is going on w him cuz regardless of how much i love the skelebros, i have WASTED, THOUSANDS of hours scratching my brain & pulling my hair out over these pixels. only thing stopping me from red string boards is a lack of craft stores near me.

which, i mean, we dont HAVE 2 ever have the full puzzle. a bunch of people have been characterizing him with a knockoff picture that's so far detached from how he actually is in canon, & yet we've all been enjoying sans UT for almost 10 years full of confusion & mischaracterization, anyways.

it's entirely possible i'm thinking abt this sans shaped rabbit hole 2 deeply, or even that these discrepancies are caused by plot holes (even the best of writers fall victim to these), & depending on if there are plot holes & how many, we sadly may never truly be able 2 fully figure out sans utdr.

or C) tricky tony is just draggin it out to fuck w us cuz he finds it funny.

& i have seen some people suggesting pap might also b off @ college, like azzy, & i suppose he could be, but then why would sans have asked us 2 hang out w papyrus tomorrow @ the end of chapter 1??? wouldnt he not be home?

B) there's some element of papyrus, maybe his design, perhaps something else, that would immediately & FINALLY tell us everything there is going on w sans, & toby isn't ready for the reveal yet bcuz he's been working up to this for over a decade now (counting developer time, not just release time).

or maybe three explanations i can think of, although i'm not concretely sure about -- well, any of them, really -- but

either A) papyrus is NOWHERE near as outgoing in DR as he was in UT, maybe to mirror how MTT also seems a lot less confident in DR? either way, socially awkward shut in DR papyrus.

literally get to sans' and papyrus' introduction in the first like twelve minutes of the game if you're speedrunning through the ruins. and the two of them were a major focal point in the UT/DR newsletters, too. so why is sans the only one of the skelebros in DR so far? there are only really two

it's actually fuckin INSANE toby hasnt let us see him yet if he IS there, cuz not only was UT papyrus all over the goddamn place w his seemingly boundless energy, which would likely make him pretty hard to miss, but he's also literally the fourth major character we meet in UT. you can

the fact that i'm coming back to this thread not even a week later is a pretty good illustration, i think, of just how batty this shit is driving me. WHAT IS HE MISSING?? is it something to do with his brother?? is UT papyrus not enough like DR papyrus?? is papyrus even GONNA be in deltarune???

also had 2 rewrite some of the messages bcuz the app censored me and like. fuck you. you killed my fridge and now you're fuckin censoring me? if this thing were alive i would go to jail for murder.

whoever invented this shit, i hope both sides of ur pillow r hot in summer & cold in winter. asshole.

currently pulling an all nighter, and stress levels are high from Circumstances™, and i mmmmmaaaaaayyyyyy have ended up taking out my frustrations on chat gpt. im not sorry.

and the fact that its literally the exact same guy in both games kind of make DR a prequel to UT? at least as far as sans' character is concerned? cuz like. idk. it's really seeming like sans deltarune is just sans undertale b4 whatever happens to make him incapable of "going back".

her voice. and there doesn't seem to be anyone in the DR universe who isn't also in UT (aside from Papyrus and a few other ppl we've yet to see). so what is he even missing, being in the UT universe instead of DR? and even tho UT and DR are in completely different universes, does sans' presence

but if the sans we see in UT is the same dude boning Kris' mom in DR, then, my brother in christ, you were already living on the surface, how is getting to the surface all that different from "going back"? esp considering he MUST know that Toriel is the lady behind the door, cuz he would recognize

the idea of sans undertale actually being sans deltarune not only seems pretty likely rn, but its also kinda fucking w me a bit. he specifically says in his fight dialogue in UT that he's "given up on trying to go back a long time ago" and that "getting to the surface doesn't appeal anymore, either"

Also, the fact that the text character limit on social media sites like this forces you to recount events like this is both hilarious and annoying at the same time, especially considering short form posts like this can be followed by well thought out replies, such as the one I'm making now.

brushed back hair - got chicken juice in my hair - fuck

put on latex glove because current wet cat food is sealed with a foil tab instead of a hard metal one and it leaks chicken juice all over hands - successfully open can and not get chicken juice on gloveless hand - give cat food - forgot to take off dirty glove (cont)