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i want to lay down but i don’t want to sleep yet so i want to be on my phone but my phone needs to charge and if my phone is charging i have to lay on my left side to use it but i finally got my seasonal vaccines today (both in my left arm) and it’s SORE. no one has suffered like i have

like okayyy everything is falling apart!!

i understand that my mom needs to vent to somebody but my god it stresses me out so bad

man i wish i didn’t hate therapy

no but for real, how long does it take to read an ultrasound

just going ahhh i’ll get it later every time i drop something in the sink

i have got so much cleaning to do before my parents get home from their trip, why do i do this to myself

that being said, the dog has been sleeping with me while my parents are away and that is a potential train wreck i MUST avoid

my arms are covered in scars because i am too willing to risk her sleepy wrath. she is my perfect girl.

my poor little angel baby is the one who has fits in her sleep, so she starts thrashing around with claws and teeth and, more recently, piss, but she is the sweetest girl in the whole world and she loves me the most

my poor baby kitty wants to snuggle with me so bad but i need to go to sleep and she can’t stay with me through the night, oh my angel i would cuddle you all the time if i could

i got NO sleep, i CANNOT handle any shit that happens today

i post a lot of my bad brain bullshit here bc way fewer people follow me, apologies to the three people who do

if you don’t go to bed then tomorrow might not show up at all! unlikely, but there’s a first time for everything!

i am just saying words because i don’t want to go to bed because if i go to bed then tomorrow will come faster

not to feed the whole “antidepressants ruin your creative output!!” thing but i was writing SO much when i was unmedicated. is it the meds or is it getting older and losing hope for a future as a writer? who’s to say!

what if i just stopped taking all my medications. just cold turkey. i’m on so many that it probably wouldn’t go well, and i don’t actually WANT to anyway, but i have been thinking “what if” a lot

i wish i didn’t hate therapy

i felt way better than this over the weekend, not great but better, and my mood has plummeted now that it’s work time again, this isn’t sustainable but what the hell else am i supposed to do

tired? why not try Four Hour Afternoon Nap?

you certainly will not regret Four Hour Afternoon Nap

well i survived. i thought i remembered hearing about the results right away but i guess not. so i’ll be sitting with that anxiety for the next couple days probably

they’re gonna tell me i haven’t had enough and i have to drink more and i may die

you know when chugging water just makes you feel sick. that blows, man

it’s taking all my energy to get myself to this doctor’s appointment and you’re telling me i still have to go to work tomorrow? when does it fucking end

their second favorite place is the bathroom while you’re peeing

a cat's absolute favorite place to be is directly under your feet

SUCK IT WAPO

i only saw bc facebook emails me random notifications sometimes and i saw his name and i'd happened to think about him a few days ago so i clicked through and. well.

apparently the boy i had a crush on as a high school freshman passed away so that's. huh.

i am just not doing well in the brain and i don’t know what to do about it. i moved up my appointment w my brain meds prescriber but that’s still not until tuesday and i’ve got a gyn appointment the day before that and i’m nervous about that on top of everything else and and and!! it never ends!!