Azkadelya

Black & white digital art of a trash can with tentacles going up it and coming from the top. It has a sticker that says normal life on it and a bag of chips & bottle poking out the top.

I don't want a normal life.

A website text box reading: TO HELP US UNDERSTAND THE PHYSICAL NATURE OF YOUR BODY PLEASE INDICATE WHAT GENDER YOU WERE AT BIRTH. YOU WILL BE ASKED ABOUT GENDER PREFERNCES AND PRONOUNS LATER ON IN THE JOURNEY. MALE FEMALE Birth gender can't be blank Female is ticked

In the almost certainly misplaced hope that it will do some good, I’m going to explain why your medical thing needs to NOT DO THIS.

So many men will become vocal about “girl’s sports” when talking about trans kids, but they’ve never raised money for girl athletes or watched girl athletes perform or made sure girl athletes had uniforms or a safe coach or transportation.

Makes me think it’s not really about girl’s sports…

The way that weed helps me dissociate & not feel the pain feels like a blessing & a curse some days.

I wish more days where the symptoms aren't as bad for all you fellow chronic illness baddies 💚

Ever just feel... off?

And like you can't pinpoint why? 🤔

Cannabis is medicine!!

I got to have a smoke sesh with my buddy last night & I haven't had a seizure since!

After 3 days of 30 or more.. this feels amazing. I'm trying not to overdo it lol

Azkadelya - female with green hair awkwardly smiling.

I am officially awkward at smiling with my teeth because it's been years with a broken front tooth.

But it's so pretty noooww!

MY FRONT TEETH LOOK SO GOOOOOD NOOWW!!!!

Anxiety is spoo annoying.

I can't sit still lol

The bud tender got my hopes up thinking they had FECO syringes & they didn't, but at least I got a cart 💚💚

I'm nervous for the dentist.

Vibrations aren't my friend.

Thank goodness I'm going to the dispensary first!

That's how it starts. Everything I've ever read or been told about how Hitler took power started with people ignoring things.

With people choosing to only look at what they want.

I refuse to be someone who only cares when they come for me.

I choose to care for everyone. No matter what they think.

I cannot get out of my brain that my stepmother said she 'doesn't pay any attention to all that' when I made a remark about Musks nazi salutes earlier.

How can you not when he is inserting himself entirely into our government to the point his own kid tells Trump he's not the president?!?!

I let my racist, classist orange fuck loving parents get me into a political convo. Oooof.

We have such different morals that it just ended in me crying.

They have never seen life from a poor perspective.

Plus, they watch fox news & then wanna tell me not to believe everything I see online 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Head of a child monster. White skin, green hair, black headband, singular large eye that is green & black.

Sometimes the static in my vision from visual snow really fucks with me when doing art, it won't stop me from doing it tho!!

Current work in progress...

There's a million ways I'm unlucky in life.

The few ways I am lucky tho.. might be worth it.

I get cannabis back tomorrow for the first time in 2 months 😭😭😭

I've had such an elevated number of seizures, I really hope this helps calms them down more!!

(I also get my front tooth filled, yaaay!)

Damn, he makes me smile.

What do you do when you can't do fuckall?

I'm so over having to spend another day in bed!

Black coffee mug with a skull pile. Handle to the left. Says Today is not the day, I'll add to the pile, I swear!

Black coffee mug with a skull pile. Says Today is not the day. I'll add to the pile, I swear!

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My migraine is gone!! So I was like hell yea shower time.

My body betrayed me again. 15 seizures.

I know they only last seconds (generally 5-10) & I'm all aware n shit.. but I almost fell a few times so that was scary.

Hopefully next neuro appt he won't rush & will listen more to the triggers.

Migraine day 4 is a bitch.

I'm soooo bored!!!

Here's hoping laying in bed with a heating pad all day actually does something (although the barometric pressure @ 29.28 & still dropping is definitely not hekping or in my control 😭)

In what feels like a different lifetime I was gonna be a photographer.

Got accepted to Brooks Institute in CA even (we're talking 2002, sadly they aren't around anymore).

I loved getting different angles, playing with light & developing the images in a dark room.

I miss that.

Find at least one person in your lifetime that can make you smile mid-depresso episode from across the world without a word...

All bcuz they showed you music they love that can speak to you even when they can't 💚

I was a bad friend to someone & that cost me the friendship.

Not those that are quite vocal that I'm to blame & state they did nothing wrong. That would believe lies they know I'm incapable of.

But one that was quietly in the background, rooting for me.

I hope she gets everything she dreams of 💚

Sub sandwich with ham, pepperoni, mozzarella cheese, cucumber, red onion & tomatoes with mayo & sweet onion sauce

This sandwich hit the spot perfectly 🤤🤤

I hate migraines that refuse to leave.

Like, c'mon body. I've drank water, had caffeine, had protein, plus fruits & veggies.

I'm tryna not do much too.. I'm just sooo bored!

Was getting the last of my blueberries & yogurt with granola for breakfast... dropped it. 😭

Only lost the blueberries really.. but what a way to start the day when you gotta clean it up & your back is already tryna murder you 🙃

I'm tired of feeling so alone.

Of feeling like too much so I can't say shit to anyone about it.

Of all this manic/depresso/manic flip flopping making my brain so bad w/the world as it is right now.

My brain is stuck on if lighter & gas in hand already.. just burn it all & be truly alone.