constellation reformer

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something for funsies

Very cute lizards at local zoo

Wrapping this long thread up; i am deleting 99% of personal art; you would be able to find my personal drawings on patreon, so if you wish to see what i make for myself and my personal projects, you should go there.

and i suppose, didn’t think through how the original artist who inspired you might feel.

I dont want to start a discourse here or diss anyone. Im just tired, at my limits and looking for some compassion because at this point i dont know what to do to keep my peace.

I am really struggling and i dont know how to deal with it. It beats me up and feels like straight up bullying at this point, even if it’s not “intentional”
The decision to draw things a certain way may be subconscious but at the end of the day it’s the decision you actively took to draw

many times.
It’s depressing to me how often cases of people tracing/heavily referencing/copying started happening, in past 5 months there has been like 7 cases. And i never had this happening to me before. I know it sounds like a ton but im not making this up. Its overwhelming.

So even a small ounce of pain leaves my body. I cannot draw, i dont want to do when shit like this happens. It takes a toll on my body and health. Sigh. I know “its just drawings” but it’s also an important part of my soul and sense of self. Something i polished and carefully chiseled out many, many

Honestly i am trying to act reasonable and without aggression, but it feels like i actually have a ptsd from all this shit about people using and heavily referencing ocs, and im just losing my faith to find peace. I am so so tired and honestly if this doesn’t stop i might do something to myself so

The stress in question is- i got unexpectedly jumped by a customer giving me a design which was super close to how Eris looks and it came out of nowhere. I talked to the person and the situation is resolved now, by the sheer stress i felt the moment this all started happening was overwhelming

Had Ale and Gven visiting us this week so i was a bit abscent, now im back on work.
I wanted to draw some owed art today but stress got to me, and the blood pressure got so strong and so sudden, i am unable to do anything now. Im writing this from bed in hopes ill feel better after a proper nap.

It feels so rigid and sharp, i love it

August Art Exchange piece from @shinerai.bsky.social's Discord server. This is @astrophagic.bsky.social's amazing chara Eris, who I had the pleasure of getting to draw!

It was so refreshing to make some pixel art again! I'd like to make some tweaks and try animating it, but for now, cheers!

At times fighting regular enemies became more tedious than fun cause they took like - 5 or so hits to beat, and bosses dealing 2 masks of damage instead of 1 is… i guess it adds some spice but my hand is a bit crippled now.
Though tbf boss movements became much readable and fair i think??

warning silksong spoilers ?¿??

Somehow silksong beats me up more than the first game but also i found myself liking the bossfights much more now. (Except that one time they lock you up with craws, i struggled on it for 3 hours and its not even a bossfight. I never ended up finishing it sighhhh)

Sunflower
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custom design commission, moon knight
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slowly finishing up my planned AF revenges; this one's for @mathildeperie.bsky.social
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commish wip; armored lunar knight

Idk whats the point of block button if i cannot restrict access to my content and myself

It doesn’t work for me? I blocked someone who follows me but they didn’t get removed from my followers
Also had a situation some time ago that a person who blocked me was able to follow me and fave my art; I wanted to follow back and its when i found out that im blocked.

Fa doesnt have a normal block option like most other sites/social media do

can someone explain to me why FA doesn't have a normal ban option?

I think stress finally let go of me so right now im sleeping a lot for recovery. Usually feeling weak and very tired, but im getting there.. getting better.

AF for @demyurge.bsky.social | 🐚🍁

im not feeling as good and jumpy i was earlier in the month. i'll try and focus to finish the rest of sketch comms, draw artfight stuff and a few other things. i really need some time off right now.

sorry for the radio silence all around. i had a rough situation with a close someone who gave me a bad time because they though it was okay to trigger some of my strongest traumas so right now i have to recover and take care of myself.
My replies/comments etc will be a bit later,

collaboration with awesome @astrophagic.bsky.social
+ custom design commission for @somekh.bsky.social 🖤

I will write a proper reply on the AF site… but thank you, this literally made my week 😭🙏 im feeling blessed ❤️