luna

spent some time lately thinking about when my mom told me that i never showed any signs of being girly or liking girly things and like. yeah. i just said a billion times that i wanted to be a girl. girls can be. not girly. i can be a masculine woman. i am one ! just interesting.

im amazed i didnt have friends explicitly tell me "hey this relationship is Bad and you need to figure this shit out" because the things we said man. ouch. terrifying. but if it hadnt happened, i likely wouldnt be here. possibly at all. and i could never be more grateful. i love you zaphie

that not only is our relationship Good, its perfect. everything i could ever ask for. im so glad i stuck it through, even when its sucked, it was all worth it in the end. and thats kinda what matters

and like. my wife and i were not Good. for each other in the beginning. she was what i wanted but not what i needed. there was toxicity and codependence to a degree i cannot enumerate. but somehow, im here today, and i can say with certainty

there was a period of my life, around the time i came out, where i would do anything to feel loved. and a couple times in that period, i talked to girls that turned out to be creeps. and then at the end of that period, i met the woman who would be my wife

ive been cutting down my last 5 years of photos as much as i can and man. im sorry to anyone whos known me that past 2 years. i fucking sucked.

dont know what the hell were supposed to do without ebt. could already barely afford food and rent and now we have literally 0 ability

discord screenshot of me saying "does anyone know how the fuck im supposed to take care of curly hair. my mom is a professional cosmetologist but 1. i dont like talking to her and 2. she hasnt seen my hair in years so she doesnt know how curly it is. or how tangled it gets. or how much definition it loses in a single fucking day"

i've gotten a couple recommendations but i could use more. especially hands-on experience

images are a picture of ao in trans outfit, pinto bean tacos i made, and gyoza i made

blue haired au ra from final fantasy xiv, wearing an outfit with the colors of the trans flag

pinto bean tacos garnished with cilantro and a side of lime

a plate of pork dumplngs (gyoza)

Hi!

my name is luna (or turtles), and i am a disabled indigenous trans woman. for the most part i exist on social media to talk speedrunning and other video game stuff and occasionally politics and food stuff as well

my character in FFXIV is Aogami Daimeishi @ Famfrit, say hi if you see her

i think its time i maybe wrote some more. maybe about me, about my characters, about life, idk. something though.

zaphie mentioned this post to me, and i would like to add: croakadile

i just remembered the one person that got really bent out of shape about me calling hornet a lesbian. funny moment

holy shit

Twitch Twitch is the world

www.twitch.tv/turtles10000...
hollow knight steel soul 100% attempts. posting here so my wife doesnt do it for me

thats such an immensely impressive like probably 2 minutes in a fucking 3 hour long vod for you to just be able to randomly click lmao

how could i lie. its the only good drink

i miss having a family

theres so much information and knowledge in my head and i can never use it because i cannot Do anything.

6am and i csnt fall asleep. terrible things on the mind.

"i just don't like—" ok then block and mute
"it's harmful—" censorship is more harmful to actual victims than pixels on a screen
"fiction affects—" literally nothing unless you don't have a brain that's able to make distinctions
"but i—" no, shut up, go away, shoo

glasses broke down the middle, my shoes are more hole than material at this point, and we have no money to get or fix anything

i need everyone to remember that everyone in unova is gay

hi friends. twould be appreciated if someone could send like $10-15 so i can get my [bitch] wife a new phone charger

like all the things (venmo/paypal) are @turtles10000000

other ones dm me bc i have to check and didnt feel like it while typing

finding out that my favorite boss in silksong was gay is like a dream come true

no offends if this is you but if you're thinking "this is going to make the right do fascism" they're already there. they blew up a boat with 11 people on it for being immigrants. they're kidnapping US citizens and trying to rendition them to Uganda. do you think we're on a trajectory to peace

of course there will be reactionary backlash to this, but the reactionary engine has enough momentum that it's self-sustaining at this point. there is a movement to categorize transition as domestic terrorism, and they didn't need one of their ghouls to get his neck exploded to come up with that

more than anything i want a harder version of oryy ornfg and pbtjbex qnapref (boss names rot13 bc i know my wife checks my posts). two of my favorite boss fights in gaming

i feel like at least once a month ive gotta have moment where i see something in spanish, read it, realize i havent understood anything ive read, look back, and realize its in portuguese

a classic story. thats how i got into it too lol. then a couple weeks ago friends were replaying to prep for silksong so i did too. its such a good game i love the silly bugs