jay ☻

funny how suddenly you find yourself wanting to ask your mother how granny is doing bc it's snowing and you always talked to her about the weather but she is gone for 3 years now.
old habits never go with them, huh?

i'm having my final asd diagnosis appointment mid february and the more time passes the more nervous i become.
the first appointment was quite chill and the psychiatrist actually the nicest one out of those i had in the past but i'm so nervous and don't know what i'll do with the answers.

literally been seeing u.s. accounts having "frozen" videos, even just tarot reading accounts, left and right.
but then listening to the new american tiktok owner or whatever he is, it's not mind boggling to witness and all have seen this censorship coming. it's and outrage nontheless.

thankyu mwah mwah

thank you sweetheart 😭
sometimes getting sympathy for that kinda thing is everything one needs.

just make me never find any man ok in any way so i can move on live a happier life and never fall into the trap of developing a crush ever again.

feel u bubz

thx to pcos i'm on my 3rd week of my period and my raging hormones making me miss people i shouldn't. also feeling miserable on top. it's so stupid.

it's tiring to maneuver social rules that make no sense and not get lost in all the nonsense people say and not say a thing at the same time.

just tell me you like me. straightforward. i'll gently tell you my feelings, whatever they are, i promise.
this constant limbo of guessing is 🫨

and how do you know if someone likes you?? i actually don't know and was always so totally wrong when i thought someone liked me in the past lol.
and i'm scared to show too much in case i am wrong yet again. 😮‍💨

how does it feel to have someone yearning for you? watching you from the sidelines, admiring you, getting lost in the mundane things you do, all the while thinking "wow, i like them".
and a person you actually like back.
i really wanna know how that feels. so long it has only been me doing that.

had a long talk with a friend who is a mother and it was very interesting. i didn't say much and just let her talk. so this is what i took away from it.

black cat in a jumping position on a pink background. a big yellow star in the middle of the picture and right beside the cat. under it written "my understanding of love is not the enemy of yours" in yellow letters.

my understanding of love is not the enemy of yours.
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#art #illustration #cat

it's one of those days on that i'm eepy and think a lot of silly thoughts.

why do we as human beings think it's normal to have the bodily remains of insects poked on a needle hanging on our walls? (besides natural history museums, i kinda see the aspect there)
don't they have the same right to rest as we think humans do?

WORD

Isn’t it interesting how little the average person nowadays knows about worldly events of the renaissance, yet nearly everyone knows the Mona Lisa?
Goes to show how important art is after all. And how nothing can ever replace it, not even AI. Because you can’t replace, the most human core of all.

my brain is lowkey in fire about how little i drew this year so please be niceys<3

☆ 2025 WRAPPED ☆

Honestly, I burnt out somewhere around halfway through the year :,) But there are still pretty boys, friend art, and things I'm still not allowed to share yet. And I did my first two zines ! Ty for sticking around 💛

so happy your art and you both found me 🤍

LOOK AT MY FREN CAL ✨

she hasn't pooped. went to the vet for a 200€ enema BUT SHE HAS POOPED NOW.
and we also found something strange in her bowel. a small thing she must've swallowed around the time i was in korea. it's wandering and the vet says she will poop it out someday but i wanna know what it is lol

i made her some fluffy cones out of felt and leftover fabrics but she was still able to reach her legs somehow and licked one raw,, cats are such a delight sometimes.
nothing helped so i got her a plastic cone and she's not having it (for obvious reasons). i'm at my mental limits.

year is starting great with a major headache and my cat not pooping for 48 hrs after getting a plastic cone AFTER licking fur off her belly and feetsies but at least i can go home earlier with my overtime hours and hopefully minou has pooped until then q u q

i'm not sure tbh. i was in a rgb illustration in the screenshot and when i chose cmyk the options there are cmyk-based. i will try that out later bc i start to understand what you mean i guess 🤓
thank you so much!!!

may you all remain as silly as you were this year and maybe even become a little sillier ♥︎

value color chosing setting in procreate

uhm i'm sorry to tell you that i'm dumber than you may think i am 🥲 but maybe you mean when i'm in this setting? i usually don't chose colors with values but use the classic color chosing thing in procreate 😮‍💨 but i will give it a go!! thank you 🥺

a white and black cat is making a funny face while looking at the camera . Alt: a white and black cat is making a funny face while looking at the camera .

cmyk bores the life out of me but i need it to print and that fucks me up so bad. i'm too stupid to get this extreme pop of color working that i do in rgb.

i need more cool artists to follow on here ✨

well, it is what it is and i'd rather eat dirt than possibly let anyone use ai to alter my illustrations without me knowing 🥲