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i'm defeated for now but time will tell

take me back to the day i was blissfully unaware of my gut feeling (hello delayed emotional processing) & was just being happy for myself.

i look at them now & nothing comes to mind. blank. no feelings whatsoever. & i try my hardest to still think everything through. see it from diff. angles, etc.

a black and white cat is laying on a white surface . Alt: a black and white cat on a cupboard, waving his paw. a cross held in front of it.

weiche böser geist

EXACTLY sell that shit. smells like white supremacy and people suffering anyway.

OH! thank you for clearing that up bc i definitely read that the wrong way.

always! i think knowing many different opinions and thoughts, even uncomfortable ones, helps understand things & ppl more thoroughly. as long as people are respectful to me & only tell me when i asked, i'm happy to hear it.

i feel a certain kind of achievement when i make men who drive fucking teslas uncomfortable.

like yeah babe, be as uncomfortable as you can. i love to see it xoxo

and since we can't really communicat with them (anymore or never really could?) it's hard to sit with silence and only see what they DO endorse.

i also haven't noticed any relations to dodgers so i was baffled too.

for the last point, i am not fully ready to form an opinion but i see how the community feels let down when we've seen their voice for blm movement in eaelier year's events.

i ger you and thank you. the dodgers thing i was unaware of tbh.

i have many thoughts about it too but i also wanna know what others think abt it so thank you for your opinion!

yeah, about the things liz mentioned

while ai is already a danger to our environment, privacy and people's lives.

and this is not in any way me trying to be mean, i rlly wanna understand your opinion.

genuinely asking, bc i'm the person who cares:
how does inviting an ai company onto your platform need context when all it does is normalize it, but a collab doesn't? with their influence whatever they openly show, tag or collab with is promoting it. army are defending the use bc "everyone does it"+

what does my bluesky bubble think about the collabs and the tag from bts? i opened up on twitter bc it was once my safe place but i wanna know what's going on here. haven't seen much critical conversations abt it at all.

a cartoon character is laying in a pool with the words and so passes another sleepless night Alt: plnkton from the tv show spongebob is laying on a mattress with the words "and so passes another sleepless night"

where is my desire to draw? where is my will to change the world, even if it's a little? where has the passion hidden itself from me? if anyone's seen my frens, pls give me a call.

MISS YOU WIFE!

blurry selca of seven men (bts) at the beach

WOKE UP TO THIS WAITING FOR ME

was abt to make a rlly sob-y text friday abt how i felt a little detached from them over the last year bc of many different reasons and this brought me back to life. i rlly needed my seven back as a whole messy blurry snuggly cute package.

so real! time is a very weird concept. especially when it comes to meaningful concerts

today it dawned on me that i did a 24hr trip to amsterdam to see seokjin live and sing mikrokosmos and spring day for the first time i becamw an army. was giggling the whole morning. guess i take days to finally realize anything happening with the tannies 🥺

a close up of a cat 's face with its mouth open . Alt: a close up of a cat 's face with sad expression

pick my remains from the curb, i miss seokjin so much.

sitting at work, running on 3h of sleep for the past 24h, picked confettig from the street like a trash panda bc i sat close yet not close enough BUT run seokjin was so worth it all. it was such a unique concert experience and seokjin is the cutest patootie who wants to see army nothing but happy 😭

hobipalooza still feels surreal, attending run seokjin tour feels surreal AAAAHHHHHH

IM ALMOST AT THE VENUE SEOKJIN WAIT FOR ME ILL SEE YOU SOON

thank you 🤍

it hasn't even happened to me personally but sitting next to it and witnessing doesn't make it better somehow. was able to say smthg to the fatshaming but when they mocked an autistic patient behind their back i froze.

i miss yoongi.

i'm so out of it, i'm not even mad or angry. just sad and defeated. and that's the thing telling me i'm on my very last straw but where to go from here.

really thought i found a workplace where i could feel comfortable but turns out fatshaming and being ableist is something that's ok there.
rlly don't know what to do with my feelings. today is the first day in a while i've actually done some chores instead of just staring at my walls.

if there's one thing the run seokjin tour showed us is that he will do everything to entertain army. he's running around stage in every costume imaginable while doing silly games with us and occasionally serenading us with his vocals like it's a piece of cake. can't wait for august!

i wonder if there will be a pop up for seokjin's concert in amsterdam or not 👽

a scribble of a tuna fish

a clay figurine of a tuna fish

making a tiny tuna for my labubu so i can take her out and see seokjin in august 🐟