🔞 Springbear452 (°•°) 🔜 Megaplex 2025

The crazy thing about schizophrenia is that they will invalidate everything you say under the guise of conspiracy or crazy talk and the crazy talk in question is holding your rapist accountable for his actions

The safety of others means excluding those who never had safety. Sickening.

If other dumbasses can interact with eachother with zero issues I don't understand why people I talk to get annoyed with me just for existing. This false narrative of acceptance and anti cringe culture sickens me. Tolerance never includes the psychotic.

I feel like people certainly can owe me friendship if I put enough of an effort. I'm getting sick of the excuses. It's not a matter of choosing it is a matter of being marginalized means automatic rejection.

Nope everything is triggering tonight I'm not even gonna try

WHO WAS THIS. Talk.

welcome home fans full of drama per usual. My life is already dead. I am already a corpse of a rabbit. Woes me if I become nothing to the average chud.

I'M AWAKE DURING THE DAY FOR ONCE HELLO FUCKERS

"liberal bojack" um

There is no benefit to anything I do or say. I hate making fursuits now. I despise everything I own. Being mentally well doesn't benefit me. Being normal doesn't help. To be schizophrenic is to be marginalized.

I say things because my stupid stereotypical schizo voices tell me hypotheticals that don't ever happen. I am never prepared for anything. I don't know what I'm afraid of. That's how this disorder works. I am just scared on top of scared until the tower of scared leans over.

I haven't seen your account in a long while. I may relapse but it genuinely has been like 6 months I think? I don't like to call anything I do progress because schizophrenia only worsens.

Well, if you still stalk me, ma'am,

I don't talk about you much. (publically anyhow)

But.

You inspire me. It's why I wanted you to respond. It's why I was so desperate. It's hard to forget someone I never hated. It's why this has been so hard.

It's hard to talk to people now.

I am allowed to be mad at people and like them at the same time. I used to laugh at the jokes bullies made in school about me. Because some people are both clever and heartless.

I love people with all of my heart just to find out I am not human. It is disgusting. Mark my words I will be heard. I am important and smart. I am no villain. It is so painful to watch other psychotic folk be made fun of for their pain and poetry.

If I knew I had schizophrenia a long time ago I would have understood that there is nobody out there for me and that my oppression is a joke to people.

To have someone call my posts speaking about my rapist "conspiracy theories"

I am not entitled to a conversation but I'm tired of playing this game dude it's getting old. I used to guilt trip people when I was 12 because it was like that back then too. People just don't fucking talk even if you're normal about it. People don't give you anything for being mentally well

If I leave them alone they don't answer. If I spam them they don't answer. If I start a conversation they don't answer. It's not that I am entitled, I am literally trying EVERYTHING to befriend someone and they just throw their personality away after 3 months of consistent happy conversation

The diet divergents love their cute "omg we're friends!" and they talk to randos for years and call them twin and dance around in their little pagan circle meanwhile I do literally every patient little step of making friends and they still act like I am harassing them

It literally doesn't matter if I talk to people in a "healthy" way they always do that bullshit where they treat me like shit after a couple of months. Being neurodivergent fucking sucks because it doesn't matter how hard I try I am always "parasocial" even in normal fucking scenarios.

Twitter's messaging system is a disease

its like telling a poor person that wanting a higher wage is greedy

Im sorry but if you think having or desiring friendship is a form of indulgence then you are privileged

Taking accountability for bigot lies about you is enabling them.

Here's you, Bowing down, all prissy-like:
"why yes! I am a bad person for being excited to talk to you! You're right mister bigot sir I shall project my newfound insecurity onto everyone else and call it advice"

At what point of abuse do you start projecting your weird insecure bullshit to others thinking that you're genuinely a problem? Like you have internalized the marginalization of your mental illness and made it into an accountability thing. So fucking stupid.

I don't care how nice people are anymore there's just some chemically weird as fuck people. That groom others into weird as fuck ideology. Life is about love and making friends and being happy. What kind of moron thinks that is an insecurity?

No, how ABUSED do you have to be to think that?

I'm not upset because I miss them I'm upset because they are genuinely really weird and fucked up and yet I'M the one that lost my privileges

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Being awake hurts