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it's not that crazy in the hindsight bc i think he does name search himself pretty frequently to rt stuff and i just happened to show up in the results. but whatever this is my #winmoment

i didn't even know how to process it i was just stunned. like. that's an SA1 developer retweeting my insane big the cat ramblings

sometimes i just remember when i got retweeted by satoshi okano and i'm like... woah. that really happened

im obsessed. what a freako

whys james sunderland hitting the sparkle on it's wednesday here

at this rate i feel like i do a better job at averting people from my presence than attracting them 🙃 whatever. anyways hope everyone's doing alright regardless

just makes me feel like an asshole

"hey. talk to [insert person here] to let them know that you're still interested in them don't just wait for a response" "...okay but what if they're busy and don't want me bothering them" this duality has forever fucked me over in future friendships

worst part is that i feel like i keep unintentionally bringing that upon myself somehow by being awkward as shit in how i handle most things such as usually never being the first one to initiate one-on-one conversation. i don't have the most positive view of myself as a result

trust me i'd love to feel like most of the things i have done & experienced from 2023-onward didn't make me feel like everything i did was worthless but i don't live in that world now do i

im gonna kick the shit out of this image

"never trust how you feel about your life past 9pm" buddy, that's easy for you to say. i WISH it were that easy, don't piss me off

i don't have the mental energy for everything, which is just as burdensome to me as it is to anyone else i assure you.

me doing even that probably just bothers people anyways and it's like. SORRY that i have bad habits, should have known to just nod and smile through every problem i have so that i don't become "overbearing" to anyone. fuck my own feelings i guess.

it's always fun feeling like a some people secretly hate me just because i don't respond to DMs sometimes due to my habit of withdrawing when i'm in a bad mood (happens quite often) or when i just don't wanna feel like a bother to them. there's no winning here.

for clarity, by "these lines," i mean that as in big and vector's interactions

i also don't have the jp equivalents to these lines to see if it's relatively the same as in english or not

i mean, vector says this but i don't know if we should take vector's words as absolute proof that big pays in fish. pretty sure he's just teasing big here

YouTube video by Windii Gaylord Course Comments | Sonic Racing: CrossWorlds (Japanese, Translated)

source to the initial screenshot

www.youtube.com/watch?v=GNfZ...

this also implies big makes income from... somewhere. where? what currency is it? who knows

for context, tyson hesse has revealed once in a tweet that big in TSR overdrive was supposed to have a wallet that he'd forget in his car. due to weird mandate related reasons that i'm still unsure why they exist, this was cut out of the short

big finally has his wallet back...

in the meantime, i'll just. continue to cope in my little corner in hopes that one day ppl will see this aspect of big beyond power level jokes

granted, most would probably not come to the exact conclusions that i have given most sonic fans don't even know what the umbrella dance that big does is even based on 🥀

or that he could even be implied religious to any degree whatsoever. given that he even partakes in any form of sonic-universe kagura, it makes me wonder if he practices some sonic equivalent of shintoism

i know that the sonic community loves to do the whole ultra instinct shaggy level joke of "big is a deity and can solo the entire sonic-verse", but i do wonder if the idea that big has any association with spirits at all has ever crept into fan's subconscious -

i'm so close yet so far... one of these days i feel like i'll have to constantly look over my shoulders and make sure that sonic team haven't hired a sniper to come out and get my ass for figuring big out

sometimes it feels like i'm on the cusp of finding potential pieces of big's canon backstory and it freaks me the fuck out. it feels almost taboo to know anything about this dude's background given his entire existence seems to be intentionally shrouded in mystery

some sonic-related stuff i used in here that i almost forgot to source

browniehideout.wordpress.com/1999/03/23/s...

browniehideout.wordpress.com/2024/10/04/s...

browniehideout.wordpress.com/2022/10/27/s...

tcrf.net/Sonic_Advent...

a close up of a man 's face with his eyes closed . ALT: a close up of a man 's face with his eyes closed .

iizuka, uekawa, maekawa, and toyoda who had not thought about all this