Zen

Today is really not a going outside day haha..

It's okay, we knew this would have happened either way, but it still sucks

Today kinda sucks a lot, got some not so great news about a close family member and now I have to be the one calling the other members about this

I ended up apologizing because of some serious news I got and kinda needed her not to blow up on me telling her

Mother got quite annoyed with me after I answered her questions but didn't let her talk over what the professionals told me to do. Said I had a rude demeanor even tho I answered her

We'll be fine after she cools down, but right now I'm not talking to her LOL I know my place

End result : my hip went out of socket, I have popped it back in now but pain ugh

Back workout 💪

Back workout went well

I'm finally back to gymratting ❤️

A picture taken in a tiny mirror slightly showing off body from working out

The tiny change that has happened to my body since I started working out ❤️ I'm so happy with the result so far

I'm back from workout, had a good salad for lunch and now I sleep

I went up a bit on my back workout today ✨ and a bit on the hip workout too

Today was not as successful as I'd like but it's better than nothing

It really is 😭 working out on it just makes me nauseous

The worst, but it does explain my sudden migraine yesterday

TMI

But I got my period RIGHT BEFORE WORKOUT, ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?

Early morning workout woo!!

Imma go back to sleep after it lmao

I'm not ready for another round of therapy today.. can we postpone it until I'm awake at 12PM?

Finished two more reps on the arms and some squats ✨ this rat has finished his training for today

How did u know?!?

Taking a few rounds on my arms before I call it quits, might do one more round on legs tho

Doing some warmup for my back after using the stepping machine thingy (not the stair walker thingy)

Can't workout whilst gymrat number 2 isn't doing well.. we pushed it to tomorrow instead...i miss working out 😭 I wish I had another workout partner

Finished therapy for today, I think I'm doing better when it comes to cptsd or at least how to handle these things and reacting to bad things

I hate going outside, my anxiety is so bad each time that I'm close to a fucking break down ugh

I need to hit the gym again soon

I miss gymratting but my gymrat partner has too much pain in their hands to go and I'm too socially anxious to go by myself

Forgot to add that it was a spinach pasta with truffle oil, tomato fried with oil and some pasta water, and feta cheese

I miss my dinner 😭 it's not often I have the energy to make something that I truly enjoy to eat

Hehe be born with booba, have chronic backpain for years, retrain muscles, boom strong back

4 reps of 10-12 on back, 50kg for the last two

Gym rat time