Sad Boy Alliance

wish our body didn't hate us. tired of always being exhausted and in pain.

one day things will stop sucking, right?

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maybe jerking off will get rid of the sad and then I'll be able to sleep

the longer we wait the more it stresses us out but our brain refuses to cooperate ughhhhhhhhhh

need to get my act together and force myself to catch up on comms

A giant robot slide from a Japanese playground

A whale slide from a Japanese playground

A cricket ladder photo taken from a Japanese playground

A panda slide photo taken from a Japanese playground

I randomly stumbled upon Fujio Kito, an artist who documents Japanese playgrounds at night. It was a fun little rabbit hole to follow. fujio-pand-park.tumblr.com

lemme know when bsky lets us have locked accounts and also remove followers

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i dont want to exist if existing just means having to deal with a bunch of random opressed emotions the other parts of my brain decided to shove in a black hole somewhere

im so fucking tired.

the rest of the system needs to learn how to fucking deal with anger and annoyance and frustration and not just decide that any sign of these is irredeemable.

i get we're traumatized but it doesnt mean we gotta pretend we're incapable of being mad at someone or something.

sorry onyx for hijacking your account but i sure as hell not posting this on main

i wish i could just. fucking exist. i wish i wasnt just a sponge that absorbed everyone's fucking anger until i eventually burst into front out of nowhere pissed off at everything and nothing

wish i knew how to exist without everything feeling bad

i stopped fronting for a while and we were ok, now that i'm back that sinking, helpless feeling is back. bwehhhhh

im the big scary headmate everyone else would rather die than be

how dare i get angry sometimes. clearly that means it's all i am and ever will be

would be nice if headmates stopped seeing me and Grey as nothing more than just "the angry ones"

i know i call myself that sometimes but it doesnt mean i want others to also call me that.

need a pocket dimension where time stops flowing and i can spend as long as i need with no repercussions pleaseeeeee

also buck says hi

cofronting with one of our relatively more confident headmates is always a bit of a weird experience

longing for the energy to properly exist

longing for a place to belong

everythings so pointless.

went out and got ice cream and now life is worth living again

need to go out and enjoy nature more i think. laying on the grass and Feeling the sun and a nice cool breeze for a few hours would fix me

miss when everything didnt suck

this rules

Friendly Fire on @thebevil.bsky.social :) !!
black-hole beast

sooo happy with how this one turned out.. soft