kai 💫

some semi-aimless background paintings #artistsonbluesky

red eye blues #artistsonbluesky

cosmic trolley problem #artistsonbluesky

Rendered illustration of various characters and settings meshed together in a monochrome, dream-like brown haze. A column of companions hover on the left side. Secretary, losing one of their appendages, is above a falling Blue being thrown by the shockwave of the explosion. In front and center is Fixer, clutching to one of the railings in a train. The train scene transitions to a staircase on the right, with Clara Kwan crossing her arms and waiting by a wall. On the top right is an escalator with Principal, who looks down on everything else in the piece. Iris/ALLMOTHER lurks behind her figure. Lastly, an occupant ring surrounds the scene as if it were orbiting the explosion in the middle. The composition resembles an open eye.

👁 behold... my piece for the #1000xRESIST anniversary fanzine! Please check out everyone's amazing works too!

download it for free here: 0x0ada.itch.io/blue-communion

#artph @1000xrfanzine.bsky.social

hi everyone i fully forgot i have an account here lol. i will be updating w my new stuff in the next few days 👍

as above, so below

I am what god made me. #conclave

its been four days and im still thinking about conclave. i love movie

thanks so much!! :'>

point of no return

innocentttttt 🐢 #conclave

i watched conclave yesterday and still thinking about it. highly recommend it, especially going into it knowing as little as possible, i was spoiled on the ending twist and it still made my heart soar. i am what god made me!!!💥

Godtomb Monk.

The blue circle on his head is called a “Universal Disc” and represents both the Desert and its higher, inverted form, the Sky. His hands and face are stained with godflesh dye.

Happy #IndieAnimationDay!

Currently deep into production of my indie pilot Ersatz, in the meantime, here's some of my other work

#Indieanimation

signalis also has a cool one but fnv is probably my favorite iteration of it....iirc its right after you learn six's backstory or after you do something horrible so it very much feels like you're being sent to hell (i have no screencaps because of difficult that encounter was)

playing black mesa for the first time (REALLY GOOD) and its cementing the idea that every video game should have a diagonal freight elevator in it

:,) love you too james 🫂💕

thank you so much!! :]

anyway im very happy with where im at, and i need to remember its good for me to talk about it whenever I want to :,) fellow psychotic people i love you so much, i hope the world only gets kinder to us.

when i was coming to terms with it, i talked about it a lot, and i was overwhelmed by how many people were sympathetic or politely curious. and i don't need to be afraid anymore. every day i feel so blessed to have family and friends who understand and accept me fully

i never got into my more severe mental issues with my therapist as a kid because i was afraid of being institutionalized, never told the friends i lost touch with why i wasn't hanging out with them. but nobody should have to fear that!! its hard enough to go through, there should be no shame in this

what little of psychotic disorders is discussed in wider circles is so soaked with dehumanization and fear---even in neurodivergent/mental health circles, psychotic people are a common scapegoat, and even in popular portrayals that ARE sympathetic, psychotic people are still often seen as violent

sometimes i feel like i never shut up about being psychotic, and then i remember why i never shut up about it---that because i didnt talk about it when i was younger, it led me to be more isolated and MUCH worse off---and then i talk about it some more

i first met her in a dream

A digital drawing of a massive magenta worm-like creature with sharp teeth leaping out of the white and grey salt ground and rearing to consume a very small person, depicted in blue, who stares up at their inevitable demise. The background is a deep green color.

You were consumed whole by Tykat, legendary salt kraken.
#CavesOfQud

the composition is so fantastic!!