the hot seat: 🪅🪬💀

🪅||sometimes i feel like soup in general but other times i feel like soup but nonbinary girl edition™ nd thats like a special type of soup. god help me

🪅 || i hope work isnt stressful again today, but im just excited. this year, the end of it at least, has turned around to b so good nd enjoyable nd happy, nd i am So happy. i cant wait to have it continue into next year :))

like it is not a bad thing that other parts of me decide to come out nd they are Safe, they know they are. in fact we want functional multiplicity man. it is just a bit overwhelming to me Still despite the fact that weve dealt with this for over a decade

like that nd its also just. insanely emotional whenever we are with him bc of unfortunately, trauma, so like. im so grateful to him i rlly am but i always feel so bad for how i react to the smallest things nd then suddenly im someone else 😮‍💨 nd then ill come back an hour or two later like ohh. hi?

🪅 || ive been dealing with the idea that i am not always the one sitting in the hot seat when it comes to fronting nd like. just trying to accept it nd not b uncomfortable or confused abt it. it is a lot worse whenever we are with our partner bc i get soooo switchy

🪅 || rubs my face intensely. i am so tired nd a bit overwhelmed nd just need to relax before work but alas i am just . idk whats up but i do feel odd

🪅 || i rlly dont wanna sit nd listen to bring me rn but ludens is doing its usual fucking ominous stance near me just staring like 🧍 nd im so . like fine ill put that one song on i guess

main host & cohosts
🪅 kells @mgkells.bsky.social
🪬 emory
💀 tyler
🪦 vance
other frequent parts
🩸 ludens
🦦 sammie
💉 saint
🍥 tess
👓 nathan
🚬 b2
🍒 cecile

the cabin system. 🪵
pwDID est. feb 2024
25 years old • they/he
& bi enby collectively 🍄
(c)ptsd, adhd, gad/mdd
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also the fact that ludens is around out of anyone is wild to me but also ig it makes sense why its aorund

🪅 dude idk how to use the emoji shit on here anymore im just trying to keep track of who makes posts. why am i so tired

what, we use emojis here? whatever. 💀

genuinely so tired. i want to leave work early but cant. nothing to do nd i feel mixed up in my mind still. not fun! -🪅

while with my partner, our newest split came out for unknown reasons nd met him for the first time, nd he was so kind. she had said he was not like Him. nd shes right, hes not at all. hes good.