Mikana

might not look at this acc completely. dont know if ill delete it or keep it here. if anyone ever finds me again in the wild then hi i guess. going by a new identity as well. i dont feel comfortable anymore.

emphasize on might. perhars im just not in my right mind

just dumping art here im prolly gonna delete this acc and stat a new one but we will see

oc + work

anyway whatever go my maxlynn

ive been so kind and supportive and im always made the fool for thinking that it matters in the slightest

i just wish my friends could forget about me so that i dont have to depress over the guilt i feel whenever im late to reply to them because im overly sensitive with communication and conversation thanks to some pricks

people think so highly of me they forget im human

even i havent been talking that much anymore im just idk bro everythings so fucked up and the things i enjoy doing somehow always backfire

god forbid i live

trying out a program... gonna animate him roughly

why am i doodling better w my mouse than tablet

#crk #shadowmilkcookie

also from memory

dumping these here

#crk

friend said blasaph is the type of character where you cant get the hair wrong unless you want him looking different and i grt it now

blasaph and capple by memory

#blacksapphire #candyapple

sdvn by memory

#crk #shadowvanilla

bro left my head its been a month im cooked

oh kini told me abt it havent checked it out
ive a lot of things to check but my brain is so crk rn

the way it filled up such a huge part of my life lmao
actually an inspiration for my story too
just the weirdness of it

"were was qritten" yeah its 7 am here and ive just finished editing the second chapter can you tell im very much awake

oh and fear and hunger

fandoms i used to be in:
1. scp (even ran an ask blog that was quite successful but left bcs of drama)
2. undertale (left bcs of drama)
3. fnaf (idek what happened)
4. dont starve together

now its cookie run kingdom

yeah theres a pattern

thank youu

i can come back with a link later? im editing the older chapters first cuz they were was written by a nightdrunk person at 3-5 am without a beta reader

need to edit one more chapter

ngl ive reached the point where people associate me with shadow milk

havent gotten the second half of the story
i do enjoy the "stay in my paradise with no pain and suffering" cuz thats literally the trope lynn follows so thats alr a huge plus

but until then, ive no strong opinion on her
tho shes my second most fav for beast cookies

look i used to be a fandom artist but i had NEVER felt this crazy before about their characters now im crazy enough to write fanfic for a fandom im so cooked im never gonna make it with my ocs am i

hahaha my brain is so cooked ive been looping this for the past few hours dont mind me

im salty i didnt go back to crk during his banner i did not even know he existed until i played the story hahahahahahahahahahahha (him and pvc r taking over my life)

did this guy cook my brain? yeah. have i posted 4-chapter fanfic revolving around him with more chapters coming? yeah

sorry my oc brain is quite dead atm. but bcs of him one oc of mine gets revived cuz they r similar so its funny

#shadowmilkcookie #cookierunkingdom

i havent slept in days. i CANT sleep. i constantly feel like im gonna pass out. and then i wonder why ive no energy

funny

i dont feel anything about my art anymore. it feels soulless

have i messed up

my entire life is a chore. always has been ever since i was a kid. i just want to create

why does everyone make it so hard

now i need to meet so many expectations that my work doesnt feel "me" anymore

i keep falling into the same hole where id spite my own story and characters, wishing i were never creative enough to create them

it feels like a chore rather than passion, yet im only here for them