Chevy! 🔜 ANEX

I’m so glad
I love you guys
Hug each other for me please
So tight

I love you wholly

I’m not sorry
For anything I’ve said here, or any message I’ve sent to my friends, my loved ones, my family
For all the things I’ll continue to say and do

Please understand
That I have no idea how I am ever going to go on
Thank you
For staying here with me
For sitting with me in my hurt
Thank you

Don’t hate me for this

I’ve never experienced any pain
Any emotion like this
And I am doing my best

To my friends, I pray I am not overbearing
I just want to love you
I want to share with you
I don’t want to hold anything back ever again I want to be known fully by everyone
The way they knew me

I don’t know why I’m doing it
Maybe I just want to keep my part of this platform from moving forward
As long as I can
Maybe I just
Want to reach as many friends as I can
I want them to be able to relate to me?
I don’t know

Although I am not sorry at all
Please don’t be annoyed with me
Please

I keep wanting to say I’m
Sorry
For freaking out so publicly
Because I am so against this
And I have never once done anything like this

I have a strict rule of keeping my emotions off my social medias

But I’m not sorry
So I don’t want to say I am
Because I’m not
I’m not at all

More than anyone

I know
Eventually
I will need to do things, life things
That I don’t want to do

I know im not truly angry at people for living
I want them to

I just hate to see the world continue to turn without them here
They deserve to be here

I’m struggling so bad with these feelings of absolute selfishness

I know I’m wrong to feel this way
But I’m struggling seeing others continue on with even a hint of normalcy

I know eventually I will be forced to as well
I dont know why it’s so hard to see, I just want everything to come to a halt

It’s so fucking hard not to have these incredibly selfish feelings that I’ve been struggling to understand

I hate watching peoples lives go on
Because mine isn’t

It’s so hard to struggle to understand why the rest of the world is still moving

It was us 3. We had the best squad. Thank you for playing games with me over the years

I care the absolute most about you

✨Rest in Peace 🕊️✨

Gone but not forgotten…

Literally.

Digital piece of Charlie the dog. They have a red bandada, a halo and wings. They are surrounded by stars, clouds and colorful hearts You will eternally be the brightest star, just as you were in life 🌟

❤️🧡💛Forever the Most Colorful Star💚💙💜

It has me livid

And I know I’m already mad because I’m angry at The person I hate

But I do not care
Maroana is my blood, and I will spare no amount of anger on their behalf

I know my friend will be deleting their post about it, and if they wish me to delete this also I will

But whoever you are. Knock it off
I will stand between you and them
I will not move
I do not care what your excuse is
It costs NOTHING to be kind or shut up

Who sits down and takes it anymore

If you start anything with my family, with my pack, with my friends
I am saying something to you.

If you don’t have something that is not 1000% nice to say, then shut the fuck up.

Say what you want to me, say anything to them and you will see how unkind I can be

Whoever is sending those shit ass messages to my fucking friend

I don’t mean to be rude back, but what is wrong with you. Think about a message before you send it. There are only very very few people hurting more than they are right now, and I am not ever going to the the person

I’m so here for you
I am so sorry people can’t just be normal about fucking anything

It’s selfish
I am so angry for you, I am so full of love for you at the same time

We know it isn’t about us, I’m here to catch you James I love you

I say it as a joke but I never mean it
Even to the people who really get under my skin

I hate someone
And it’s overwhelming how badly I hate that person

I’ve always said I don’t hate anyone
I can’t
Not fully, because nobody deserves that

But now I hate exactly one person

RIP Charlie 🤍

You brightened a lot of people's lives and even mine. You were unbelievably kind and sweet and I wish I took more time to chat with you. You'll be greatly missed in our community and always loved.

You're light, love and all of the above. Rest easy and shine on, gooddaycharlie~

I love you 🫵🏼

We’ve all been pouring our hearts out
Confessing hard feelings

It is so
Comforting to have you all here with me

I feel my ties to you all getting tighter
I feel Charlie shining in the thread that binds us

I am so grateful for every one of you more than ever

All of us
Have never told each other we love each other more than we have over this

We’ve opened up to each other, every friend who I’ve spoken to has opened up to me about something
And Ive done the same

I feel so close to my friends right now
It’s so bittersweet

Take every single minute of time you need, we all understand, we will all understand

We will all be here with open arms whenever you are ready, to catch you

We love you
You are surrounded by so much love
So much

To quote a song Charlie once sent me when I was down,

"I've been on the brink of broken

Stripped to my shadow on the floor

Like the broken bones inside my body

I will be stronger than before"

I love you bub. I love you critter. I love you Charles. I love you Zenny.

A selfie I took with them, i covered my face, i wish i didnt. I love this photo of them. They are standing behind me and above me, leaning in to me with a big smile on their face. I picked the devil horns filter for them on purpose, they loved that aesthetic. I loved them for it

A bad photo, but a good memory. We are all a bit disturbed by the TFF baby. Myself on the left, aery above me and Charlie in the far center, except for miles lol who is golden retriever smiling as always. I am wearing Charlie’s brand new “woof” hat though you cannot see it. I stayed with them to help with their table, they were nervous. I kept reminding them their work was worth being there, they deserved it. I hope they believed me.

May every single one of us,

Be more like Charlie

You are still so alive to me

Every piece of art
Every photo
Everything of you
Is so
Full of you

You are so full of life
You are everywhere
In everything
And you’re shining so brightly
I can feel it
Just barely out of my reach
In every image of you
I can feel your warmth so close to me