Cat Mom

Tell me the weirdest/creepiest/most unhinged music videos you’ve ever seen.

Really missing Cleveland. 😭

My manager just told me I have anxiety 🙃

Settled on yellow for now. It seems like a bright, happy color for the time of year when it’s cloudy, gray, and rainy basically all the time. I’m not sold on it, though. We should be able to customize our calendar colors.

Today’s ADHD annoyance is Outlook calendar colors. The orange isn’t orange enough, and why isn’t there a purple? I can’t find a color I like for my calendar. The teal/turquoise-ish bright blue color has run its course.

Beautiful!

My friend found a corpse on Halloween night. 😕

I’m supposed to be going to another sex party at another mansion this weekend, but due to complications, I’m not going. I’m sad about it, but I’ll do witchy stuff with the girls, instead.

This is perfect “lie in bed and snuggle with kitties” weather. But I have to work. Life is cruel.

Blessed Samhain!

I’ve neglected my altar (and my practice) for quite some time, and with Samhain very quickly approaching, I need to get my shit together.

I can make it a point to listen to disenfranchised voices, use my privilege in ways that don’t overpower, and apologize when (not if) I unintentionally make mistakes and thank people for helping me on my journey.

So cheers to sitting in discomfort and learning and growing to be a better person.

I will never be perfect, but I can make a commitment to continuous learning and growth and allyship.

I struggled with acceptance at first, telling myself, “That’s not me. I don’t do these things.” But the truth is, I do, and I need to own that and sit with these feelings of discomfort and shame and work through them.

And it was really uncomfortable to be forced to reflect on instances when I’ve said or done things, even unintentionally, that could be perceived as rude, ignorant, ableist, racist, or even caused harm to people.

Because we can’t show up in the best way for non-white people without being forced to check our unconscious biases & sit in discomfort.

I attended a required training last night for my volunteer work about unlearning white supremacy & I’m so glad that we do this & that it’s required multiple times per year for white volunteers

Getting a haircut tomorrow, and I don’t know what I want. I’ve always had long hair and like it that way, but it’s in a messy bun 98% of the time, so…

Um, YES PLEASE

Newfoundland is lovely, and so are the people. I could definitely live here.

I miss the activity of Twitter and everyone there, but I refuse to go back.

Bonus: it’s a theme/dress up/kink/sex party.

LMAO, I’m going to a party at an oceanfront mansion this weekend. What even is my life?

I casually mentioned this to my therapist at the time, and she was like, “How do you think this sets you up for your day? What kind of mindset does this put you in?” (Clearly she’d never worked in the hell that is Corporate America. QUIET, LADY. WHAT DO YOU KNOW, ANYWAY? 😹😒)

I’ve always connected with music. I’m reminded this morning of when I had a job and boss that I hated. Each day, my alarm was “Take This Job and Shove It”, I’d listen to “Highway to Hell” during my commute, and I’d play “Welcome to the Jungle” as I walked into the office.

I can’t even imagine how she feels, and she shouldn’t have to go through any of this alone.

I can’t stop thinking about it/her. She’s younger than I am, and I’m not even 40 yet.

Obviously hoping for the best and good news, but it’s scary. I feel awful for her.

She found a lump on one of her breasts & is rightfully freaking out. She’s super close with her mom & her mom is out of town & can’t take her to her appointment to get checked out. She doesn’t drive & was anxious about how she was gonna get there, so I’m gonna take some time off work to take her.

Had the girlies over for some witchy stuff over the weekend, and one of my friends was unusually quiet and not herself. When most people went outside to smoke joints and it was just the two of us and one other friend, she apologized for being so unlike herself and just started crying.

Just found out I might be eligible for Slovakian citizenship/an EU passport through my great grandpa?

Sending you love and positive vibes 💛✨