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best part of my day is my early morning walk as soon as i get back inside my apartment the dread resumes

eliot Smith save me Hear my prayers

i find it poetic that the one video i treasured most and revisited many times over a period of 8+ years was lost to the annals of time because of copyright

i’ve made so many memories and met so many people online. i have screenshots of conversations and kind words from 2020-2025. so many kind words. its still surprising to me how liked I am; I love you all. Thanks for giving this lifelong shut-in some companionship

thats alot

all my streaming problems would be gone if AV1 wasnt locked to closed beta for 3 years now on twitch and they actually made progress with it. it sucks youtube isnt a viable streaming platform because they support literally all the newer technology inlcluding AV1 and way higher bitrate.

discovered the factory menu shortcut on my monitor and discovered a hidden overdrive setting that eliminates overshoot completely wtf ive been using this monitor wrong for 4 years

updating + redoing my offline music library today

videogaming dead as fuck i just work on my server/website/docker/applications now. its just like modding a skyrim installation but with actual purpose. much more fun

duster dethroned for the first time ever

the zoning out has gotten so bad recently that I genuinely cannot even play video games for an hour. it has never been this bad in all of my life. not to be grim but I fear it may be a sign of The End

now i wonder whats to blame for this.. oh right: capitalism. its so insane how much better things can be in every aspect when money is removed out of the equation. it doesn’t matter what facet of life you’re applying it to it’s just infinitely better without capitalism involved

for example know how when you’re playing a game and someone on your internet starts streaming/downloading something and your ping spikes? completely avoidable with simple software, a literal 1 click fix. even on my slow ass connection with 10 people using it my ping never spikes from 30.

and now ANOTHER performance boost from setting up a FOSS recursive caching dns server. it makes me wonder how insanely fast my internet could get with 8gbps fiber and a beefy router. so many things we assume are normal when it comes to internet just arent

the performance you can squeeze out of anything when you don’t use commercial software is insane. for instance my internet is only 50 down 10 up but i got a massive performance boost when i swapped to a custom built router, then another boost that came from the free software

i gotta stop putting shit off if i had my docker server remade and backups setup for all my important shit i wouldnt have had to spend the last 2 day’s fixing my router because of a power outage that reset it to default settings

A small, white bunny stands on its hind legs, peering out a window. Lush green trees are visible outside.

what sin do you relish most

my morality is killing me

YAAY its the thought that counts

i eat the same thing every day so i have no energy to do anything but i cant afford to eat better and even saving money like i have been i’m still losing monthly its so doomed

the only thing i couldn’t ever conquer i fear

i mean i'm a neet why am i even trying to live healthily. i have infinite time i should spend it all on becoming the very best at something no matter the cost right. its not like i ever get good sleep anyways. think of how much more time i'll have if i stop sleeping

on one hand i've been making strides on living a more balanced life and trying new things to try and find happiness.

on the other hand i do miss being the utmost degenerate person who is known for only gaming constantly and never sleeping. i was kinda cooking when i thought that was my calling

i was an xbox gamer until 2016. my most played game on xbox were skyrim with 3k hours and then fallout new vegas with 2k. also a lot of my hours are in rhythm games not tracked on steam, with a minimum of 6k hours in them

yahoo