Goop

medical access is stupid here, can we subsidize hospitals already & change the business model in health?

got a medical life ahead that requires intensive cancer screening, I have a tumor already screened that requires removal but, I was deemed lost cause and lien to Medicaid after all my assessment.

I put it under the wisdom teeth bc Gabapentin semi-paused the rate of loss in muscle

wondering how, to get compassionate acceptance when docs are hard to find taking new patients

I've at least assured a Emergency Bridge prescription soon, but I'm running up on time

I still need to re-house, I am lost for leads, with homeless @ end of Dec, it is my second priority

Yearns for "Normal"

normal being, not just surviving, but living

if its a real thing anymore

kind of why I'll never be free of the medical system, and our shutdown is all about, making it worse!

aside poverty & neglect destroying my spine before I left the Second Class @ 18 & attained prerogative

call it double jeopardy & a manufactured consensus to poverty inventing health tragedies

originally why I was put on Xanax @ 9yrs & oh boy what a shit show adventure of developmental dependency thanks to State Psychologists;

can't provide a safe environment, but sure as hell can give a child Xanax & Anti-Depressants to counteract the long-term depressive Xanax causes till Neuropathy

like ooh i can manage decently; but I still live on a coin-flip of waking up, to feeling like the walls are melting & hell is outside the confines of my door

Can we um, effectively treat PTSD? especially give care & attention to domestic violence & violent sexual assault survivors

feels like PTSD is all, codified up in the idea of War

you can become shell shocked without being these things. from experiencing such in domestic violence & VSA @ 4-15yrs

it is wild that ketamine is so accessible and widespread here.

been years of swinging trying to access trials in ME after over a 7 unsuccessful therapies /yr tenure per, varied treatments, and 20 different medications, mostly SSRI/SNRI/NRI, Benzodiazepines, which, gave me neuropathy & low results

marketing marketable skills is the marketable skill development I need after acquiring SO many marketable options lmfao

Art, Music, Film, Photography, Baking, Cleaning, Troubleshooting, Tech, Writing, it goes On, if there is a book I will read it and learn, and apply

I just want the fucking, $100 im entitled to, for my 7hr day of work without breaks that got me hurt, but my hours got retracted & my deposit went off to some random account

the pit in my stomach says we are in a rugpull of labor rights with all the Busting activities taking up

‘Grand Theft Auto’ Studio Accused of Union Busting After Firings Union says 30 and 40 people were terminated. Rockstar Games’ parent company cites ‘gross misconduct’

BREAKING: Yesterday Grand Theft Auto VI maker Rockstar Games fired dozens of people, all of whom were involved in union efforts. A British union calls it "blatant and ruthless" union-busting. Take-Two Interactive says it was due to misconduct.

Here's the scoop: www.bloomberg.com/news/article...

Second instance of the corp I worked for, 1 day

committing fraud, changing Direct Deposit account, blaming payroll provider, provider blaming bank

happened to roomie earlier this year; they blamed USAA bc payroll provider compromised their bank

I never set up direct deposit though! so, what now?

Need love
Resting the rest of the day
Feeling sick, weary for cardiac symptoms
Heart feels ectopic

I’ve wanted an Apple Watch for the ECG just to know if when I have these events I should call emergency help

Usually 24/36hrs to recover, digestion dumps, lethargy and depression malaise, palpitations

Idk if I’m tied to weed for life cuz it’s the only thing that stopped this but I quit last mo

6/mo of True complete isolation in the dark of winter in Maine while sick within an inch of my life, did things to my brain that I can only describe as perilous to attempt to hang onto social values and foster community as much as I can

belief effects outcomes in medicine, furry kept me hanging in

Been having massive difficulty managing my telegram & social life

feels like the wrong time to engage bc of external pressures, but it has been years of this now.

it plays w/ my heart because I want folk invested in me to see me do well, and reciprocate the investment. I feel bashful to my battle

Workplace that fucked me over is union busting 🙃

Roommate got laid off, only 1 employed in house of 5

We are in complete crisis and catastrophe management

1 done interview, corporate retaliation from prior workplace

I have interview Sunday now, I have commute saved

House may default; immediate homeless risk November

I as well require ADHD medications for my gainful function. I neglected these medications as they are not necessary for body stabilization

it will require a physical physician, I have begun searching leads into insurance free compassionate care, I have a long medical record ~16yrs, complex intake

This is a medical crisis. All funds are firstly, exclusively, and foremost, going to a doctors appointment ASAP.

I have 18 days of anticonvulsant medication left

I have not been off CNS medication since 2009, this will have severe implications if I do not get help immediately

spread sheeting and writing a fiscal assessment plan for the household on our present resources & reaching to have everyone know their resources so there is fiscal determination on end of tenure.

going to attempt to help (good)roommates set up GoFundMe for Exit as they have suffered as much as I

had to reschedule my interview bc of commute crisis

I was compassionately allowed to reschedule to Sunday,

drastically lower Uber rates, & I can share the ride in as it's already a roommates place of work on one of their work-days as to save the costs to ride home

got commute cash put back

Thanks dental insurance that screwed me over, thanks a lot, I’m not even supposed to be allowed in the negative on this account type, it’s overdraft opted out…

Water Lilies at Sunset - 1907
https://botfrens.com/collections/41/contents/3110475

Trees and Beach - 1916
https://botfrens.com/collections/173/contents/3105021

🗡️🗡️🗡️

Some profligates pillaged and plundered my life to get at my body and abandon me to careless circumstances.

the licentious missing stairs that wrought my hell and stole my innocence, to have my body, and attempt to own me.

I am not a sex slave, I want liberation, I am fighting to liberate myself

not getting the pay I'm entitled to from my day of work, that I wasn't getting the paid training I'm entitled to, as a laborer

interview tomorrow, fighting to keep this life.

need love because I am one week away from no more anti-consultants fills, losing it all, & it's a bonfire under my ass