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Check it out if you're looking for identity shenanigans, angsty yearning and hualian being insane for each other!

archiveofourown.org/works/677148...

Here's a snippet from the last chapter:

01.02.2026 00:43 β€” πŸ‘ 2    πŸ” 1    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

#tgcf #hualian

I just posted the last chapter of my hualian fic "Perchance to Dream" in which Xie Lian makes up an imaginary San Lang to keep the loneliness at bay, and that works alright, until San Lang suddenly starts behaving very strangely...

01.02.2026 00:43 β€” πŸ‘ 4    πŸ” 1    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0

Hehe thank you!!

27.01.2026 14:21 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

#fth2026

I signed up for fandom trumps hate 2026!! I will be offering a fic for either scum villain or tgcf and would be happy to receive a few bids when bidding starts! I'm very excited to finally be able to take part!

27.01.2026 14:14 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0

I know my scum villain fics are wildly more popular than my tgcf ones, but I think tgcf is all I can offer!

What do you think? Is there any interest in that or nah?

19.01.2026 13:02 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I'm tempted to do fth this yearπŸ€” I've always wanted to but never managed! The problem is, I'm not sure if I'm able to write something for scum villain at the moment (I've just not felt any enthusiasm for it recently, sorry) but I don't know if anyone would be interested in getting tgcf fic from me?

19.01.2026 13:02 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0
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#tgcf #myfics #hualian

Today is my birthday, so you all get the next chapter of Perchance to Dream, in which Banyue and Ke Mo finally talk, and Pei Xiu has to take some responsibility.
This is the second to last chapter, enjoy!
archiveofourown.org/works/677148...

13.01.2026 13:51 β€” πŸ‘ 3    πŸ” 1    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
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#hualian #myfics

I posted chapter 7 of my hualian fic Perchance to Dream, in which they go down into the Sinner's Pit, have a heart-to-heart, and start untangling the mystery of Banyue.
archiveofourown.org/works/677148...

09.01.2026 00:51 β€” πŸ‘ 3    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
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"A Spring Morning" version 0.5 is out!
Don't forget to handle your nameless ghost soldier with proper care ☺️

Devlog: auchrauch.itch.io/a-spring-mor...

#tgcf #hualian

10.12.2025 15:52 β€” πŸ‘ 96    πŸ” 42    πŸ’¬ 4    πŸ“Œ 1

Episode Two is now live!!!!

Ten of the remaining women make dreams come true with Luo Binghe; Luo Binghe and a woman fly high together; a competition leaves some women in the dirt.

All this and more on this week's episode of When You're Ready~!

archiveofourown.org/works/747636...

03.12.2025 00:04 β€” πŸ‘ 3    πŸ” 4    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 1

As he spoke, Hua Cheng's eyes widened even more until he looked scared. He started shaking his head before Xie Lian had even finished. "No, listen to me. You have done nothing wrong. It's me who has disappointed you."

"What?" Xie Lian stopped short and tried to make sense of the words.

26.11.2025 17:17 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

"I don't know!" To Xie Lian's embarrassment, it came out as a wail. "You have been angry with me, have you not? If I did anything, please just tell me, San Lang. I promise I won't do it again!"

26.11.2025 17:17 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0

Xie Lian wavered for some time before gathering up all his courage. "San Lang, you would tell me if I had done something wrong, wouldn't you?"

To his surprise, Hua Cheng turned to look at him with wide eyes. "What do you mean? Dianxia, why would you think that you have done something wrong?"

26.11.2025 17:17 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0

#hualian #tgcf #myfics
Chapter 6 of Perchance to Dream is out, in which San Lang is Xie Lian's imaginary friend until he becomes very real.

archiveofourown.org/works/677148...

Have a snippet:

26.11.2025 17:17 β€” πŸ‘ 2    πŸ” 1    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0

#hualian #myfics
Just posted the 4th chapter of Perchance to Dream, in which Xie Lian goes off the deep end:)
archiveofourown.org/works/677148...

06.09.2025 23:14 β€” πŸ‘ 3    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
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#tgcf #hualian #myfics
Chapter 3 of Perchance to Dream is out, in which Xie Lian ignores all glaring signs pointing towards the truth in favor of giving San Lang smoochies.
archiveofourown.org/works/677148...

13.08.2025 19:52 β€” πŸ‘ 6    πŸ” 1    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

Chapter two is out, in which Hua Cheng is having a very strange day

22.07.2025 23:52 β€” πŸ‘ 2    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

Thank you too<3

18.07.2025 07:34 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
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#tgcf #myfics
I posted the first chapter of a new #hualian fic, in which Xie Lian makes up San Lang as his imaginary friend!

archiveofourown.org/works/677148...

18.07.2025 00:09 β€” πŸ‘ 8    πŸ” 7    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 1
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#tgcf #myart #XieLian

One sketch of Xie Lian at the Small Shop of Chance Encounters!

07.07.2025 17:26 β€” πŸ‘ 6    πŸ” 1    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

HC, deadly pale: I'm so happy for you, Gege:)

04.07.2025 19:14 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
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πŸŒ™VOLUME 1: OUT NOWπŸŒ™
🩸The Count of Amaranth Moor 🩸
OR: Memoirs of a Modern Vampire

πŸ₯€A wayward butler disappears into the night.
πŸ₯€M/M romance, Regency/Georgian era, 500+ pages, Vols 2 & 3 forthcoming.

πŸ—‘οΈLinks below

21.06.2025 02:33 β€” πŸ‘ 56    πŸ” 21    πŸ’¬ 4    πŸ“Œ 6
β€œI could work as a servant,” Hua Cheng suddenly spoke up, and everyone paused and turned to him.

His mother shifted nervously. β€œHong-er, dear, you don’t have to–”

β€œI don’t mind,” Hua Cheng said with a smile. β€œI learn fast and I’ll be very diligent, I promise.”

β€œWe don’t have much money these days,” his father said grumpily. β€œIt’ll be hard work for little pay.”

β€œThat’s fine with me,” Hua Cheng said in the same cheery tone. Xie Lian started to suspect he was having fun riling up the king.

β€œStill,” his father said, looking darkly at Hua Cheng, β€œwe don’t know where you’ve been and where your loyalty lies these days, so it would be better for you to–”

β€œHong-er is going to work for me,” Xie Lian said pleasantly. β€œI trust him implicitly. Certainly more than any of the other servants I’ve ever had, who didn’t have to undergo a whole background check, if I might add.”

β€œI could work as a servant,” Hua Cheng suddenly spoke up, and everyone paused and turned to him. His mother shifted nervously. β€œHong-er, dear, you don’t have to–” β€œI don’t mind,” Hua Cheng said with a smile. β€œI learn fast and I’ll be very diligent, I promise.” β€œWe don’t have much money these days,” his father said grumpily. β€œIt’ll be hard work for little pay.” β€œThat’s fine with me,” Hua Cheng said in the same cheery tone. Xie Lian started to suspect he was having fun riling up the king. β€œStill,” his father said, looking darkly at Hua Cheng, β€œwe don’t know where you’ve been and where your loyalty lies these days, so it would be better for you to–” β€œHong-er is going to work for me,” Xie Lian said pleasantly. β€œI trust him implicitly. Certainly more than any of the other servants I’ve ever had, who didn’t have to undergo a whole background check, if I might add.”

β€œIf I might remind you that it’s still me making these decisions.”

Xie Lian clicked his tongue. β€œI’m going to spend most of my free time with him anyway.”

His father was starting to turn red from all the back talk, but Xie Lian’s mother put a hand on his arm and leaned close to look at him with a pleading look and whisper something into his ear. As his father listened, he slowly lost the angry flush and finally leaned back with a heavy sigh. β€œOh well, alright. We can use all the servants we can get for Xie Lian’s wedding anyway.”

From the other side of the table, a choking noise came and Hua Cheng set down his teacup, holding his hand in front of his mouth. β€œExcuse me, his what?”

β€œIf I might remind you that it’s still me making these decisions.” Xie Lian clicked his tongue. β€œI’m going to spend most of my free time with him anyway.” His father was starting to turn red from all the back talk, but Xie Lian’s mother put a hand on his arm and leaned close to look at him with a pleading look and whisper something into his ear. As his father listened, he slowly lost the angry flush and finally leaned back with a heavy sigh. β€œOh well, alright. We can use all the servants we can get for Xie Lian’s wedding anyway.” From the other side of the table, a choking noise came and Hua Cheng set down his teacup, holding his hand in front of his mouth. β€œExcuse me, his what?”

#pbp #tgcf

Another snippet of the long #hualian fic im writing on, peach blossom prince!

04.07.2025 13:47 β€” πŸ‘ 6    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0
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Shizun holding his Binghe πŸ₯Ή

#svsss #bingqiu

16.06.2025 00:54 β€” πŸ‘ 195    πŸ” 72    πŸ’¬ 14    πŸ“Œ 1
Xie Lian stared up into the shadows pooling in the crooks and crannies of his bed’s ceiling and said, β€œI don't know if I–” 

Like, is what he meant to say, but that wasn't quite true. It was more accurate to say, β€œI think I fear who I'm becoming.”

Next to him, Hua Cheng turned towards him, half his face hidden in the sheets, and looked at him with his dark brows furrowed attentively. β€œWhat do you mean?”

β€œThis… greediness,” Xie Lian said hesitantly. β€œThe selfishness and the jealousy. I've never felt like this before, certainly never acted like it. I was taught that these aren't good qualities to have, that good people aren't greedy or selfish or jealous. And yet, you keep encouraging me again and again.”

β€œI like it,” Hua Cheng said softly, his eyes dark and melty. β€œI love it when you take what you want, I love it when you wanti. And if the thing you want is me, how could I not encourage you?”

Xie Lian covered his eyes with a hand and groaned. β€œYou're not a thing, though, and I shouldn't treat you like it.”

With a rustle, Hua Cheng suddenly sat up and swung his leg over Xie Lian to sit on his hips. He leaned forward and took the hand lying over Xie Lian’s eyes into his own. Finally, he lifted it to gently kiss the thumb.

Xie Lian stared up into the shadows pooling in the crooks and crannies of his bed’s ceiling and said, β€œI don't know if I–” Like, is what he meant to say, but that wasn't quite true. It was more accurate to say, β€œI think I fear who I'm becoming.” Next to him, Hua Cheng turned towards him, half his face hidden in the sheets, and looked at him with his dark brows furrowed attentively. β€œWhat do you mean?” β€œThis… greediness,” Xie Lian said hesitantly. β€œThe selfishness and the jealousy. I've never felt like this before, certainly never acted like it. I was taught that these aren't good qualities to have, that good people aren't greedy or selfish or jealous. And yet, you keep encouraging me again and again.” β€œI like it,” Hua Cheng said softly, his eyes dark and melty. β€œI love it when you take what you want, I love it when you wanti. And if the thing you want is me, how could I not encourage you?” Xie Lian covered his eyes with a hand and groaned. β€œYou're not a thing, though, and I shouldn't treat you like it.” With a rustle, Hua Cheng suddenly sat up and swung his leg over Xie Lian to sit on his hips. He leaned forward and took the hand lying over Xie Lian’s eyes into his own. Finally, he lifted it to gently kiss the thumb.

β€œWhy not,” he asked, β€œwhen being your plaything, your treasure, your possession makes me the happiest I've ever been? By all means, Your Highness, possess me selfishly, jealously. Rage at me if I talk to other people too nicely and I’ll fall to my knees and gladly beg for forgiveness. Shackle me and I’ll only tighten the chains. There's no need for respect between us.”

He seemed to interpret the resulting silence and Xie Lian’s wide-eyed expression the wrong way, because he abruptly changed tracks. β€œBut if Your Highness is afraid…” From one second to the other, something about him became predatory and he dragged a hand from Xie Lian’s belly to his chest to watch with greedy eyes how the soft flesh dipped under his fingertips. β€œI could be the one taking, for once. Who could blame Your Highness for submitting to my advances if I push you so boldly, barely leaving you a choice? If I cornered you in dark hallways to take my pleasure, if I forced you–”

Lightning-quick, Xie Lian reached out and grabbed the hand on his chest. β€œNo,” he said firmly. β€œI won’t have you take all the blame for something we both want. If you want to… to be the one taking, then we can do that. But only with my permission. I won’t allow you to turn yourself into a villain to relieve my guilty conscience.”

With his next breath, all the predatory tension left Hua Cheng and he turned small and uncertain. It wasn’t hard to tip him over and spill him back onto the bed.

β€œYou don’t dislike what we’ve been doing, then?” he asked quietly. 

β€œNo,” Xie Lian answered and grabbed his wrist, holding it tightly and securely. β€œNo, that’s the reason I’m afraid, don’t you see? I like it way too much.”

β€œWhy not,” he asked, β€œwhen being your plaything, your treasure, your possession makes me the happiest I've ever been? By all means, Your Highness, possess me selfishly, jealously. Rage at me if I talk to other people too nicely and I’ll fall to my knees and gladly beg for forgiveness. Shackle me and I’ll only tighten the chains. There's no need for respect between us.” He seemed to interpret the resulting silence and Xie Lian’s wide-eyed expression the wrong way, because he abruptly changed tracks. β€œBut if Your Highness is afraid…” From one second to the other, something about him became predatory and he dragged a hand from Xie Lian’s belly to his chest to watch with greedy eyes how the soft flesh dipped under his fingertips. β€œI could be the one taking, for once. Who could blame Your Highness for submitting to my advances if I push you so boldly, barely leaving you a choice? If I cornered you in dark hallways to take my pleasure, if I forced you–” Lightning-quick, Xie Lian reached out and grabbed the hand on his chest. β€œNo,” he said firmly. β€œI won’t have you take all the blame for something we both want. If you want to… to be the one taking, then we can do that. But only with my permission. I won’t allow you to turn yourself into a villain to relieve my guilty conscience.” With his next breath, all the predatory tension left Hua Cheng and he turned small and uncertain. It wasn’t hard to tip him over and spill him back onto the bed. β€œYou don’t dislike what we’ve been doing, then?” he asked quietly. β€œNo,” Xie Lian answered and grabbed his wrist, holding it tightly and securely. β€œNo, that’s the reason I’m afraid, don’t you see? I like it way too much.”

#tgcf #hualian #peachblossomprince

A little scene from my long hualian fic that I'm writing on rn, Peach Blossom Prince, in which Hua Cheng is Xie Lian's servant. Cw for hualian having no healthy boundaries..

28.05.2025 20:01 β€” πŸ‘ 4    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

Xie Lian swallowed. Of course he knew that this could very well be a trap. After a second, he followed anyway.

24.05.2025 11:45 β€” πŸ‘ 4    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

Icy awareness trickled through Xie Lian’s veins and he froze. As he watched, the butterfly lifted off the rough wall and lazily fluttered away, deeper into the cave.

24.05.2025 11:45 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0

It was a single silver ghost butterfly, sitting on the wall and slowly beating its wings.

24.05.2025 11:45 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0

He had just thought that when a light in the distance caught his attention. He warily lifted his sword higher and made his steps quieter. It was a longer walk than expected but, eventually, he could make out the source of the light.

24.05.2025 11:45 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0

Xie Lian swallowed. He couldn't let himself think that. It was his duty to follow orders and even if Hua Cheng wouldn't turn out to be here, at least it was another lead off the list.

24.05.2025 11:45 β€” πŸ‘ 0    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0

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