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the question every autistic girl has to ask herself

do i sit in my normal spot on the bus opposite of someone or choose a different spot somewhere else?

i chose my spot. i hate change more than i hate possibly being perceived

thats what i was thinking... the only problem is that its a little risky if im worried ab binging

but i lowk need to work on my self control a bit so maybe this is the universes way of testing it i rly deserve to be my ugw 😭😭🙏

im sure she's figured it out since i find it hard to lie to the ppl i care ab but i havent explicitly said anything, yk?

idk i just dont want her to see me do smth disordered and feel triggered by it

#edsky #caterpillar sky pls help me (couldnt save as a draft so i screenshotted)

hello edsky, how art thou?

i cant even lie im honestly quite happy with my current weight.... but id be way happier at bmi 14 soooo ~15 more kg to gooooo except thats not happening for like another year bc i dont have the energy to deal w my parents monitoring my weight and what i eat

thats somewhat of a hyperbole bc ive mainly just been snacking more and eating less proper meals. so im eating more often but it ends up being close enough by the end of the day that idc.

erm other than that my diet has been wack asf 😭 if im working, i barely eat most days before and during my shift. always eat dinner bc j cant get out of it easily UNLESS im closing (getting off 8-9pm) but on days that im not working im inhaling everything in the house

my weight has been fluctuating but staying in the 50-60kg range. im not too worried since rn im just trying to maintain this weight until i can get my own place bc my mum points how how "skinny" ive gotten ALMOST EVERY FUCKING DAY. just bc i lost 30kg doesnt mean im skinny yet MOTHER.

erm ed update ig since ive been overworking myself every week 😍

idk how im still getting notifications when i basically havent been active since i got a job lmao

I SAW HIS CATS GUYS I SAW MY WORK CRUSH'S CATS THEYRE SO FUCKING CUTE EVEN IF I LOSE INTEREST ONE DAY IM STILL GNA TRY FOR THE CATS

been overeating these past few days... i need to get myself under control.

i need a girlfriend who wants to be my girlfriend

this is her own fault as well. making comments and suggestions and stuff like girl just say the word and ill go down on u i dont careererrrreeeee

for the first time in like ever a girl who i am even somewhat attracted to in the sense that i would marry her if she asked but if she didnt that would be chill too actually feels like lowkey the same and i could be knuckles deep in her rn if it werent for THE LITERAL COCK BLOCKING ME

I CANT DO THIS IM SO HORNYYYYYY

idk if i actually gained or if its js my period so i skipped dinner... minus a few fries eaten in front of my parents.. this morning i was like 57kg.. plsss be bloating from the lax and my period plssssss

tyyy dolly 🫂💕 same to u ml 🫶

quick & lazy thinspo/tinyspo thread for #edsky #caterpillarsky #edtwt

i get u. have period, feel bloated :c

okay thats all byeeeeee >w<

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