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Muelsyse, Mudrock, Rosmontis

UGH

I just want all my friends to make it. I can't afford to possibly lose two more of my closest friends this year. Please. Please.

I need more slop bowls to be honest... just fuel for myself...

..that said i am writing art and it's beautiful

im losing myself

im saying goodbye to myself
and i still don't want to let go.

because the new me who's going to appear is. unknown.

im scared.
this is good for me.
but... I...... I don't want to say goodbye to myself..

it's the lowest it's been in YEARS
when I was still growing

...shitshitshit

might genuinely die or severely harm myself if this keeps going

like

...

it's bad

it's really bad

I've lost 5-6kg in just 6 weeks

fucking hell I NEED TO EAT MORE

i can change
i can become someone who is confident in myself

realising, i should be content with my own accomplishments

but it doesnt mean i can never share, or i can never want *some* validation from others

i want to be seen

but i dont want to flaunt every bit of me because that doesn't get me anywhere

restraint is key, i guess

no wonder i don't feel like anybody

im living life as someone else, not myself

...i just didn't think it extended to being trans too, I thought I had that figured out...
.....
I'm scared..

I mean, I am surrounded by trans people, I have been for years now..

but in real life I have a very limited social and support network

and as a result, physically, socially, I feel so repressed...

sigh..

.
.....i guess... even if im scared... I have to do it scared...
until im not scared...

this is exactly how transphobes want us to feel and act

this is exactly the kind of fear they cultivate

....and I've fallen for it

.....and i can't get out......

.................

we will change

... because this isn't living at all

our ego is completely dead

and what might give us safety and happiness, our brain says it's actually dangerous

it's a problem, i am not allowing myself to be me

im not in any particular danger to do so

im scared that people will not like me, in a sense

if they see me for who i really am

the part of me that is a girl and is me is too vulnerable

I don't have the inner strength yet

girls, how do you get the confidence to present yourself for who you are?

im realising i feel a deeply great shame in myself. especially with being trans, like, yes, I know who I am... and i think I've come to terms with it but

but i don't allow myself the self determination to be myself...

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yeaaaa!!

maybe i do still need their validation or something idfk, but like, this is a big thing for me and i really am happy and proud for myself

i just deeply feel their absence at this time

today is supposed to be my happiest day

im getting hrt

but im so fucking sad

i miss them so much

I don't need their validation

but they're close friends of mine

and i want to share my major life events with them like my other friends

i miss them so much

i miss them

.......i miss them.....

oops, staying up a bit later.. ahhh friend watched show without me
:(
it's fine, it's what it is I guess

i see the mood has turned a little sad...
..
maybe it's okay to embrace it
.no. it IS okay to embrace it,
..
so with that...
we listen to a sad song..

goodnight,, we love you friends..

she's special

the yearning huh... some day I'll be lying down on a bed just barely big enough for two, with a girl who should probably take better care of her hair curling up with me on her side, while i stare at the ceiling, listening to music while high and feel the strobe lights around us light up

one day...

me when i don't get notifs for things!

The yearn never ends... but some day it will, and you'll get what you deserve :)

I want to experience that slow and gradual, yet oh so satisfying burn you find tend to find in yuri, coupled with the fun experimental, intimate, and erotic lifestyle of hypnokink. I yearn, oh I yearn.

Maybe one day I'll be blessed with that interaction that changes everything, one day 💕

3/3

NOOOOO MY PRECIOUS MUSIC TASTE truly corruption if it's something I'm not necessarily into lmao

corruption kink but with your music taste