aj ✨️

"you're tired, not weak" 🥺😭

I feel stuck

sick and tired of being sick and tired

depresso

I wish I knew how to not sound like a lil bitch when I say that I don't have the spoons to interact w people these days

"but I don't think you'd be proud of how I'm turning out"

I used to really love Christmas

20 stalls, 19 are open, and you pick the one next to the one I'm in? the fuck? 😒

I just miss my dad man

Don't you dare tell my mom but she was right about skin so soft being great to add to a bubble bath before bed bc my skin is soooooo soft

I'll be shocked if I don't lose my shit today tbh

like yeah I love my personal space and alone time but fuck living alone really fucking sucks sometimes

I could whine about 37 different things right now but that would make people uncomfortable so instead I'll keep everything inside my silly lil head, mask heavy, and make myself ridiculously uncomfortable at the expense of my own mental health 🥰

my mom never anonymously texted me insults she just called me a slut to my face like a normal person

I have so many good ideas and quite literally the only thing holding me back is lack of money

and that makes me so fucking sad

when my dad died my mom told me that she'd always be there for me and to reach out when I needed her. it's almost been a year now and I've called her twelve times. she hasn't answered once. not even once

don't make promises to people when you have no intention on keeping them. it's fucked up

my mom: *gets drunk*
also my mom: this is a great time to call [me]

like you know it's bad when I willingly call my mom for help

"All you post about is your dead dad"

Yeah I'm actually so fucking glad you don't understand what I'm going through. I wouldn't wish this on anyone, even pos men. I am breaking and I'm not ok and soooo many men just keep bitching about me being sad. Like fuck you for that. Unfollow or block me idc

Today’s to do list:
•Drive someone up the wall
•Cry over spilt milk
•Have my cake & eat it too
•Face the music
•Bark up the wrong tree
•Add fuel to the fire
•Call it a day

I really wish I had someone that just naturally took candid pictures of me being happy. Like that's not something you ask someone to do.

and at least when I sleep I can see you in my dreams

I hate how often I just wake up and start sobbing bc I don't get to see my dad in my dreams when I'm awake

I can't tell if it's my period or if everything actually sucks but I think punching a wall would help

rsd is a fucking cunt

it's fine I'm used to it

It's just me and my box of tissues against the world

happy tears are happy 🥹😭❤️✨️

+1 trauma, awesome

idk but I think it's a ND thing to have a bad sense of direction and need a while to get adjusted to new spaces