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I know this place is dead, but I'm here to update the few users of this platform.

I am Jesus. Nobody listens to a word I say, everyone calls me crazy, and I know exactly how the world works, just as He did.

Forgot this place existed. How are my very few followers doing?

This place sucks

I know I'm disgusting and evil and hate myself and will never get better, but at least I don't have voices in my head! :3

The existence of pronouns implies the existence of noobnouns

I don't know what this implies, but if it's what I think it is, don't fuckin do it. Idk who you are, where you came from, or what you're going through, but trust me, it won't be worth it, and never will be worth it. All it'll do is hurt those that you care about. It will get better 💙

Happiness is a choice. A choice I did not take, cannot take, and thus, will not take

Can ONE thing just go right for me ONE TIME!?

I was never like this until September. Why did it all have to go wrong. I was set up on such a straight path for success, but no. Nothing ever works out for me. Nothing goes to plan

I know this whole schpiel is a fruitless endeavor, and that nobody really cares or will read this, but I'm saying what needs to be said about myself, from myself

Why did I have to exist as a human, and suffer as a human

I am a parasite, and a poison to the world. I need to be locked away and forgotten. It's what I deserve for my sins against everyone I've ever cursed with my presence

I've explained why anything that *could* work for most people *won't* work for me

I just want it all to go away. Just for all of this to stop. Please

Don't worry, I will never act on any of the thoughts that I have. Too much of a little bitch I guess

I do not have any way to explain why I feel this way, or what condition(s) I have other than saying that the pressures of society have driven me to some form of insanity

I'll try to say what I wanted to say without saying it. Here goes. I feel constant urges to commit graphic harm to most people, including myself

I changed my mind, I can't say what I was about to say

I don't know if I should go this deep, but fuck it. What do I have to lose now? This is just a silly message board that nobody cares about anyway :3

...Not me. I'm just fucking delusional. No way around it. I'm purely evil, no pleasure to the pain

Evil people have at least ONE good thing about them. Some of them are pretty, some of them are rich, some of them are smart, some of them are caring...

But NO. I HAVE TO BE STUCK AS THIS FILTHY HAIRY DISGUSTING EVIL NARCISSITIC APATHETIC DELUDED MAN BODY AND MIND

Why the fuck did I have to be filled with these thoughts in this body? If I was a girl and raised a girl and looked like what the common people think that a girl looks like, all of this would be treated, and I'd be okay

I know people that only discuss my positive traits and say that I'm a great person, and I know people that only discuss my negative traits and say that I'm incredibly fucking evil. I don't know what or who the fuck I am anymore

Why do I feel so bad this close to christmas

I've wasted my whole life setting myself up for success rather than happiness. Wasted seventeen fucking years not hanging out with anyone, cooped up inside with my games and school work sometimes. Now my academics are falling and I'm gonna be left naked with no safety net

The only thing I can feel anymore is anger. I want to shake someone violently while screaming at them whilst remaining completely in the right. I've been fishing for reasons to be angry just so I can feel *something* again

I've never truly cared about anyone other than myself and my mother. All my friends hate me, and I'm too socially anxious to make new friends. And no, the internet doesn't count, I do not care what anyone says, internet friends do not count in my heart of hearts

Every time anyone has tried to help me, I completely discarded what they've said