阿散井 恋次

Head hurts. Lights too bright. Body aches. Can't move. Send help.

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⠀⠀Sighs. It had been a long day. But, thankfully it's over and he can drink the night away! Thank Reio for booze! Amen!
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[ 𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐰𝐨𝐤𝐞 𝐮𝐩

𝐓𝐨 𝐚 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐯𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞, 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐩? ]

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helping. Not that it ever truly was in the first place.

⠀⠀Eyes afix their attention on his Captain; glassy, hollow, empty.

⠀⠀"What do I do, Captain?" He asked sincerely, a tremble in his voice. He was hanging by a fraying thread, a thread which threatened to snap at any second.
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by its neck. He poured himself another helping and downed that cup same as the last; quickly.

⠀⠀"... I can't sleep. Barely eat. I put on a brave front for our fellow squad members but..." His voice trailed off.

⠀⠀He was losing his sanity with every passing day. The alcohol was no longer —
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⠀⠀The redhead downed his cup of sake in one fluid motion. He set the cup down on the table with a hollow thunk. A sigh falls from his lips, hand running through his locks.

⠀⠀"Congratulations Captain, you've won the award for understatement of the year."

⠀⠀Svelte digits grasp the bottle —
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see is blood, limbs and bodies. I can still hear the pleas and screams of the dying..."

⠀⠀Renji shivered just recalling it.

⠀⠀Pours his Captain a drink and hands it over, his gaze focused on the table between them, eyes distant.
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feet. A glass, right.

⠀⠀"Where to start, where to start. Well, ever since the war with the Quincies ended, I haven't been able to sleep. When I close my eyes all I see is— ah found one!" Snags the cup he had been searching for and flops back down on the sofa, "All I —
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⠀⠀𝘽𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝘽𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙠 ❗

⠀⠀It took the drunken redhead's brain a few long seconds to process what was happening. Was this reality? Was the Captain actually going to drink with him and listen to his problems?

⠀⠀Snaps out of his thoughts and stagers to his —
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don't have any excuse. I— just didnt want to be at home. It's... complicated. I don't want to bore you with the details, haha."

⠀⠀He laughed nervously, scratching the back of his head. Oh man he was so fired...
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⠀⠀SHIT! 𝗦𝗛𝗜𝗧𝗦𝗛𝗜𝗧𝗦𝗛𝗜𝗧𝗦𝗛𝗜𝗧𝗦𝗛𝗜𝗧! Oh man, he's gonna lose his job! Anything but that! He can't go back to Rukongai and mud sandwiches! Anything but that!

⠀⠀He swallowed hard, shrinking slightly beneath his captain's stern gaze, "Sorry, Captain. I —
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Captain! What uh— brings you here at this hour?" He laughs nervously, a bead of sweat rolling down his forehead.
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glassy eyes. Shit. Busted. He's gonna die isn't he? He's a dead man! Dead. D.E.A.D! Dead man be he! Or worse... an unemployed man. Renji would much rather be 𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 than have to return to his former life in the slums of Rukongai.

⠀⠀"Oh shi— 𝙖𝙝𝙚𝙢, I mean, Hi —
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chalked it up as a booze fueled auditory hallucination. That lasted only a few seconds. His intoxicated mind finally caught up to the fact that the voice he had heard was, in fact, real.

⠀⠀His head snaps around, a nervous smile on his visage, a twinge of fear in his —
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night was no different. Alone he sat in the office, not wanting to spend this night at home. At least here he didn't feel as isolated. It was a bit warmer than his residence, less... lonely.

⠀⠀Amidst his drunken stupor, he heard his captain's voice. At first he —
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Elusive and fleeting whence found.

⠀⠀Slowly he wastes away both mentally and spiritually. Day by day, night by night, ever searching for a remedy to what ails him at the bottom of each glass; each bottle. Alas, a cure yet to be found. So the cycle repeats.

⠀⠀This —
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⠀⠀The days since the war had come and gone; blurred and hazy. The demons in his head whisper incessantly, only quiet when drowning his kidneys in toxic elixirs. Yet, no matter the amount consumed, they always return; mocking his attempts at silencing them. Sleep? —
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⠀⠀Trying his best to drown his demons in bottles of alcohol. Sadly, it wasn't helping in the slightest. So goes another sleepless night; drunk and alone. The usual.
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⠀ ⠀ 𝗮 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝘀𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘃𝗼𝗶𝗰𝗲𝘀 𝘄𝗵𝗶𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗿 𝗻𝗼𝗶𝘀𝗲
⠀⠀⠀⠀𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝗳𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗰𝗲 ...
⠀⠀⠀⠀❛ ━━･❪ ✗ ❫ ･━━━━･❪ ✗ ❫ ･━━ ❜
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ viewer⠀discretion⠀is⠀advised.⠀ ⠀
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ #BLEACHRP & #MVRP
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ᴛʜᴇ ʙʟᴇᴀᴄʜ ᴄᴏʟʟᴇᴄᴛɪᴠᴇ™

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⠀ Snoozing on Rukia’s couch.

Tending to his duties even as his head pounded.

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⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀—— #TENSURARP
⠀ ⠀ ⠀𝐚𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐭 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞 & 𝐚𝐝𝐦𝐢𝐧 𝟐𝟏+ .ᐟ
⠀ ⠀ɴᴏᴠᴇʟ ʙᴀsᴇᴅ — sᴘᴏɪʟᴇʀs ᴀʜᴇᴀᴅ .ᐟ
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❝HAPPY —𝙝𝙞𝙘— NEW YEAR‼️❞ He bellowed drunkenly.
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Snoozing at his desk. It was a rough night.

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❝ ⠀𝒟id you think that a display of force would be enough to overwhelm me?
———— ⠀ how⠀foolish.⠀ ❞

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