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I've set the all time personal record of drawing 80 colored illustrations in the past month........................

Wishing I was rich so I don't have to work like a mule... I still owe people money that I need to pay off...

🥺🥺🥺🥺 starting weekend shifts too so I'll be working 7 days a week starting this week for the remainder of the year...

I miss my anime uncle but I've been sick and ill and unwell for so long I don't remember how to draw anymore

I've been nerfed because of incessant migraines for the past few months but watching that Xbox TGS live and getting jumpscared by a gungrave trailer out of nowhere made me miss Jyuji and RB so much lmaoooo

A full gungrave gore remake HOOHHHHHHH

NEW GUNGRAVE CONTENT???!!!!?!!!!

Waking up the sun is fine but then suddenly it's storming and you can't go anywhere or do anything but stay vigilant

It keeps flooding here... How do I even get anything done...

Reading text and even alphabets gets more difficult when I'm stressed so I need to sort myself out alreadyyyy

Actually thinking of locking tf in for October this year, I have so many low priority backlog that I need to clear out because it keeps messing with me when I'm working on high priority tasks AND during my resting days... this cannot go on...

Asyik tahu songlap duit je takde sorang pun nak bantu baik mampos je

State government is too clueless on what to do and federal government don't give a shit about us here, every year, the same months, and around the same area, people kept dying from the same issue, something that should've been fixed years back

I don't need aid money, you can't use money when you're dead anyways

I got a long cut vertically up and down my calves from raiding dirty flood waters (you wouldn't believe how sharp rocks are when you can't see where you're going) so I think I probably shouldn't go out for a while

The weather here is wild
One morning everything is fine and then the next hour it's storming and people are dead from sudden flash floods

Idk who to trust so I just don't bother anymore as long as I'm not too involved I can always escape

I think it's ok ok as long as I don't stir the pot again I won't be put in that exhausting experience again it's been years they should have move on, I'm not that recognizable anymore I changed my handle 10 times now so it should be ok

Why why why is the world so small why is the people who followed my main are close moots with my stalker
Do I have to nuke my account again

><;;; can I send off 2 from my backlogs again this month, I'm tired and it's been flooding everywhere but I need to try harder

Peter J Mojuntin - The Golden Son of The Kadazan : Bernard Sta Maria : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive Peter J Mojuntin - The Golden Son of The Kadazan

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I'm going to put this here for myself to come back to when I have the time to finish the book

I didn't know psychogenic pain is a thing and how it's fucking me up that sometimes I think the only way to counter it is to have a physical injury just so I can SEE that I'm hurt
There's like a coating of existential dread that I can't explain to anybody so they'd understand my struggle

What's it like having a functional brain.? I miss it already
I was "normal" and functional up until I reached a certain age and suddenly my mind just regressed so drastically in one single swoop
I'm constantly in pain that the doctors can't pinpoint, they all say my mind is conjuring the pain myself

When I go out to buy groceries, I get this nagging feeling I'm going to run into people who recognize my face, which is a normal phenomenon but my mind keeps thinking that people recognizing me is a dreadful, negative thing...

I know it's unreasonable, but I can't help it

I'm kind of worried if I ever fall into the category of insanity that succumbs to conspiracy theories, at the very least I am self aware that I'm being unreasonable but it's also something I have no control over

Half of the time I can't tell if I'm being paranoid borderlining hallucinating but if you live in the way I live in this godforsaken state, you would start questioning if anything is even tangibly yours at all to begin with too, not even your name or your native status can guarantee your life

Because one time I found out my name was being used for a ballot voting that I've never attended, in fact someone actually called me saying my name is under an area I never registered for, so since then I've had paranoia attacks that someone out there has a duplicate of my IC sold by the government

So I just stopped going to government bodies for anything unless I absolutely have to ("jail or not" situation). I don't even use my driver's license anymore since I just book ehailing if I HAVE to go out...

-Project IC that's been fucking up locals' lives here to the point our own national identities are being sold out for political games

I became so protective of my own IC that I get extremely paranoid to even share it out on government offices even if it's a mandatory process...

Is it weird that another factor to my scopophobia is that I don't trust my local state government because they have the inside black market of duplicating locals' identification card and give it to immigrants for false ballot voting (our corruption runs rampant here), there's this thing called-