A. H.

If you’ve been following my disability complaint, the first day of mediation is tomorrow. There’s nothing I can get from this except change for the many disabled people still at my former employer.

I have devoted the last several years of my life in my fight to improve their lives.

Solidarity ✊

Thank you. And thank you for offering me support and solidarity all these years.

Thank you. And thank you for offering me support and solidarity all these years.

Thank you. And thank you for giving me support and solidarity over the years. 💜

Listening to this song again this morning. For the newly disabled woman I was back then when I was alone and terrified in this fight.

I AM BRAVE. I AM BRUISED.

I AM WHO I’M MEANT TO BE.

THIS IS ME.

I have always pushed back against anyone who tried to make me feel shame from my disability or asked me to give up my legal right to not be in unreasonable pain at work.

I won't let them break me down to dust
I know that there's a place for us
For we are glorious

Another round of bullets hits my skin
Well, fire away 'cause today, I won't let the shame sink in
We are bursting through the barricades and
Reaching for the sun (we are warriors)
Yeah, that's what we've become

Look out 'cause here I come
And I'm marching on to the beat I drum
I'm not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me

It’s a great disability anthem:

When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I'm gonna send a flood, gonna drown 'em out
I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I'm meant to be, this is me

When I was at my former employer and I had to go into yet another accommodation meeting where my boss might get angry or try to convince me to give up my asks for accommodations, I’d put on my biggest petticoat and march to the meeting listening to This Is Me from the Greatest Showman.

We are our own salvation.

In our solidarity and understanding. In how we listen to each other and sometimes even keep each other in this world despite how cruel it can sometimes be to us.

Disabled people are the best gift of disability.

I begged people to help me. To make it stop. And they didn’t help me.

But I can be the person I wished for for someone else.

If you are disabled and being harmed at work and you feel alone, know that I did this for you, too.

Disabled people save each other.

It has taken longer than I thought and taken things from me I didn’t know I’d be asked to sacrifice. I haven’t had the time or energy to write my own work.

But I would do it again. I am not someone who can walk away without doing everything I can to change it.

If you’ve been following my disability complaint, the first day of mediation is tomorrow. There’s nothing I can get from this except change for the many disabled people still at my former employer.

I have devoted the last several years of my life in my fight to improve their lives.

Solidarity ✊

25 years old.

I ate foods. 🫡

Ate foods. Thanks for the encouragement.

I ate some foods. It was hard to cook when so weak but it happened.

I did shakily make myself food. And I’m at least feeling a bit better.

I ate!

I used to rely on protein bars for this. But gradually became disgusted from every flavor I can eat from eating them too often. Lol.

My husband coming into my life meant regular meals cooked for me lol.

I just stood up and my feet almost gave out under me but I don’t actually feel hungry lol.

But I knew I must be because I can do math. And I’ve eaten like 400 calories today.

I have back to back meetings on Mondays for most of the day so he brings me food during my meetings most days. And now I’m too fatigued to cook for myself.

Oh also tortilla chips. I don’t really have energy to heat up food but my husband won’t be back for a couple more hours and I’ll have even less energy as things go on.

Someone make me go eat. I’ve had two pancakes and a protein bar all day because my husband was working out of the house all day and didn’t bring me food.

And the soup we were going to eat for lunch was frozen solid.

I do get a lot of resistance every so often from folks that I don’t really understand.

One of my colleagues was shocked that I was only four years younger than him and not 25… and I wonder how much people reading me as very young affects how I’m perceived and treated professionally as someone with a lot of authority and a big title.

I did not buy enough snack variety for my snack bed. Rookie mistake.

Should I get more snacks?

That was said from my Snack Bed, btw.