t.alan

Why do all my pants still have the tiny guitar pick pocket when I haven't touched a guitar in decades

I don't lack love in my life. I have a lot of it, and I generate plenty of it for others around me. Why isn't this enough for us to live on, though? Why must we have something other than love to sustain our existence?

I'm looking forward to having a career that involves less masking than I'm used to.

I don't think it's possible for me to totally have a masking-free line of work.

And no, I'm not working in sales or whatever. I've been an engineer for 15 years.

I think I might have sent the meanest message of my life today.

Oh, god dammit... the consequences of my own choices have arrived. Fuck.

A day or two after the election, I told my republican parents I'm no longer their son.

Not a single day has gone by in which I felt any regret for this.

Studying the Spanish revolution of 1936.

It's amazing what these people achieved without the structure that a state traditionally provides.

Seasonal affective disorder got me studying serotonin

Serotonin is such a weirdo.

It's a neurotransmitter, but 90% of it is produced in our intestines.

Famously, too much or too little of it can each kill libido.

Our skin literally photosynthesizes it, too. Which is why I need moAr sunshine.

My Facebook account turns 20 years old this year... I think the only thing really stopping me from killing the account is events.

Don't mind me, I'm just on one of my 'christians to the lions' kicks this week..

Seasonal depression has me hunting, starving for dopamine again.

I've got to make sure that my relationships don't suffer for this. Can't treat the people I love like dopamine dispensers. Must find other sources of validation.

Maybe if I just keep short-form shitposting, that'll do it.

Free band name of this 47 seconds of totally nonconsensual consciousness: "Consolation Fries"

What I miss most about Google Plus was how you could control the audience/privacy on posts by compartmentalizing your friends list and then using rudimentary set-notation to combine and exclude these categories of friends.. I was a math student at the time and my colleagues & I went ham on that.

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I remember when Google tried to do a social media thing called "Google Plus", there was no character limit on posts.

I also will never forget how awesome it was to read your very longform OKC profile, and that was only 8 years ago. "No high elves! (elves who get high are fine)"

Christians in America will call you a utopian for studying communist and anarchist writers, then turn around and quote you bible verses about heaven.

If me howling "the proletariat must seize the means of production!" is a no, then no thanks

A message from one lover in particular

YUP

Just realized I still had an active feeld account I haven't checked in a while.

I honestly don't have a use for it.

Once you make enough actual friends, nature does its thing and you start to realize you're not actually as alone as you might think. Even if you're not partnered.

Go outside.

300 characters per post means I'll have to be more concise. Hmm.

Feels nice to start something new.

Happy to see an alternative to what Meta controls.

Let's build something better.