OMG, I JUST FUCKING MESSED WORDS UP AGAIN. SLEEP, SLEEP YOU DYSLEXIC FUCK
Wow I should posting cool project/excited creative revolutions when im too tired to grammar check.
Way to go. Dyslexia at its finest
Hello it's me, your local internet Changeling, AKA or local girl failure. It's been a little bit.
Funny updates. Scraped that last Model I was working on, a lot of stinky people got wrapped up in its creation.
Better news a new project, and learning the new skills like neck seems.
Been playing Umamusume again because Cafe came out. Feel free to add me and join my Club in game!
Been playing Umamusume again because Cafe came out. Feel free to add me and join my Club in game!
Omg Happy Birthday!!🎉
Anyway now that I got that out of my system. Here's some screenshot updates of the Avi im working on in my free time.
Managed to fix a lot of small problems with the outfit, as well as added a second hair option. I'm officially done with blender and all that's left is unity work.
I'm someone who values self-discovery, self-expression, and social connections. Money and a job is important sure. But they shouldn't be the reason you live, I'm pretty damn sure if I asked my family what they strive for they would shrug their shoulders that's kind of just sad
And before it stated or asked, I don't have to pay anything out of pocket for medical stuff at the moment thankfully due to insurance. I thankfully live in a state where they understood that medical coverage for anyone under a certain income bracket it should be available.
The motivation to never want to go back to what I'm leaving. Again I'm sorry this is out of nowhere, I was just reminded of I'm perceived from a conversation I just had with my father. A conversation which was supposed to be about a follow up to a hospital visit I had
I hate how the only feasible option I see to secure a proper happy future for myself right now is to leave my own country. But I'm almost getting too old for work visas like that. Because honestly getting out of this type of environment probably would give me the motivation to try harder.
I know these posts are kind of generally out of nowhere and I promise you they're not the type of thing I like to talk about. I'm just trying my fucking best and apparently that's never good enough for the people I'm supposed to call family. People I don't think I'd contact with if I move out.
As if the failings of economy, housing, job market. Are anything I have control over. I feel bad enough that my younger brother moved out before me. They're constant reminders anytime money comes up that I'm technically a failure for person really does not help with anything.
Any fucking time money comes up he always complains that I'm only working one job or that I'm not trying hard enough. If things actually worked in this country I could probably live with a roommate or something with my current lifestyle. But no I got shit for not trying hard enough
At least that's what it feels like when I talk to my father, my job isn't giving me a lot of hours lately and he's wondering why I'm not working, when I explain he gets kind of irritable and scolds me for not complaining to them that I'm not getting hours. Which sounds like a good way to get fired.
My family, which I still live with due to how poor the economy and housing in my country is. My family unfortunately believes work and money are the only important things in life. If you're not working full time or busting your ass with side hustles. You're not doing life right
I don't really need much to function, like if I was shopping for groceries myself at most I think I'd spend like $150 for 2 weeks, I don't eat a lot. I also don't tend to spend money and try to save it the best I can. So generally speaking money doesn't isn't something that bothers me
I'm more of a night person and actively struggle with getting up early. I'd always struggle to get anything done until I would normally wake up in general. As such I work second shift normally. I could also do overnight but it's almost impossible to find a job for that that isn't full-time
Forgive me this post is just going to be a rant.
I work a part-time job for two reasons. For one full-time jobs tend to burn me out to the point of bad things. And two, you'll be fucking lucky to even get a full-time job nowadays, or another job in general. Like I can do 26/32 I at most and be ok
I want to cosplays Chiyo one day
Sorry for the lack of content or posts as of late. I had a medical scare this week and I've been taking things slow just in case as a result. Avi work is slow has been slow as a result. I hope I can find the time to work on it soon, I have too many ideas and to little time.
Vrchat Avi WIP update
Still in Blender but I decided to take it in an emby direction.
Mini Avatar wip, finished with the head edits and added the hair.
I'm actually really vibing with how it turned out. I'll probably save it as a separate file to reuse for future projects.
Mini Avatar wip, finished with the head edits and added the hair.
I'm actually really vibing with how it turned out. I'll probably save it as a separate file to reuse for future projects.
Started a new VRchat Avi project, though Im in the very early stages. Slightly struggling with what I want it to look like (its outfit and its vibe) I'm leaning towards an alt style, but we'll see how that goes.
Feel free to give me with outfit ideas. There's a chance I might use it as inspiration.
I want to work on vrchat models again as well. Work has been nonstop, and it's been hard to find the time to squeeze it in. It doesn't help that my current project is a gift for someone, so pairing up creative time and time with them is hard. I should start a different project while I wait honestly.
I want to pick up art again. it's been years since I have properly drawn something besides shapes and perspective practice.
I really do struggle with motivation a lot, so it always tends to fall off, but I want to change that. I want to be creative again, I want to make things.
Sorry for the random vent post. I won't make a habit of it.
I really dislike that the topic of Tulpa's somehow keeps popping up in my social circles. I've dealt with more people than I'd like to admit. Most if not all of them used it as an excuse for their awful behavior. IDK I just want to go a few months without being reminded of that shit.
Can life be less busy so I can do things, please aaaaaa. I just want to work on my avi project and post this on my alt account T.T
