Iko Rants 🤍

Anyways! I’m ok and not being manic at all!

I’ll do light jabbing with friends only if I know it’s ok with them. I really try to avoid any kind of insult humor at all because of how degrading my friend group was.. UGH.

And it SUCKS TOO bc I keep thinking about how they are doing and that I miss them, but they were horrifically toxic to me.

I used to think the “bullying humor” was funny but holy shit it destroyed my mental health. I’m so afraid of saying anything wrong and will apologize immediately if there is even the slightest shift in tone.

Im very thankful my best friend and I are so open with communication. It helps so much.

Someone I used to know popped up on my discord tab on my main today…

Man. I have a lot of PTSD from past friends I used to RP with and hang out with. I need to pull myself out of that tar pit and be done with thinking of those people. They did nothing but make fun of and hurt me…

I’m stil in an RP drought right now and it does make me sad that I don’t have more fun relationships between my character and my friends. I am trying to do more, slowly. But I am still very afraid of asking too much or being too overwhelming about headcanons.. 😭

LRP:

I genuinely have had such an awful time trying to get people to interact with my FFXIV OCs that aren’t available for shipping or ERP. PLEASE I am begging for people to be normal!!

I want to have conversation with people that isn’t immediately objectifying this pile of pixels I made!

It will never stop being amazing (bad connotation) to me how so many in this community segregate not only themselves but also everyone else based off "I need to be sexually attracted or aroused by your character in order to even speak to you". No wonder why friendship is a novel concept in XIV.

The country is so stressful to keep up with but I will not let myself be ignorant to what is going on around me.

thancred lying face down on the floor and clutching his stomach

reposting period cramps thancred for no reason at all #ffxiv

Thousands of protesters shut down parts of Minneapolis and St. Paul on Friday as hundreds of businesses closed their doors. David Guttenfelder/The New York Times

genuinely stunning image

Being informed makes me so violently ill but I can’t live without knowing what is going on in this country. I will NOT be blind to what is happening. I will not be blissfully ignorant and stand by while people are executed.

I know it sounds extreme but I genuinely have started looking into asylum in Canada. I don’t know what else to do to get away from this madness. Even peaceful protests aren’t safe anymore from these gestapo on the streets.

I try not to get too serious on Bsky but I am at the point where I don’t feel like the place I live is safe anymore. Something has to happen. I wake up shaking, I start bursting into tears, the news makes me so sick that ive been unable to eat some days.

I really hope that the doctors can tell me what is going on with my uterus. This shit sucks so much ass.

I’m supposed to be excited about my raise today but I honestly just feel so fucking depressed.

At least I got signed up for health insurance and can get back on meds…

A little cat sits in the left corner of the screen with their face scrunched up. A jagged word bubble coming out of their mouth reads, “A SINGLE BODY ISN’T MEANT TO PROCESS SO MUCH MISERY AND FEAR”

love your friends, let your friends love you

Anyways!

I’m moody because of shark week being very intense on my body and emotions.

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After New years (where I invited ten friends, who all confirmed, and only 2 ended up showing up) I think I am starting to hermit again.

The place only gave him a few months to live (he was 3) after they diagnosed him and he lived until he was 10. The strongest pup I know.

The place was very nice. They are taking a few tissue samples to send to a research center that studies the disease he had and will hopefully lead to the advancement of treatments for dogs like him.

We said goodbye to Finn and ugh I cried ugly style, but still not anywhere close to how hard my dad cried. You know the emotions hit hard when your DAD starts sniffling and weeping.

If my dad’s dogs don’t stop licking me I am sending them TO THE MOON.

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