PeptoDismal

Look at this thing I made!!

Hoping someone new will love me is scary even when they are doing and saying all the right things. Relearning how to be vulnerable is scary. I expected to be single for the rest of my life

I cleaned out a bunch of old cosplay and a bunch of scrap fabric. Gonna try to make a bunch of stuff to flex my project muscles and use some of the random shit I have laying around

I just wanna play ddr like the gay weeb I am and neither of my consoles are compatible 😭😭😭

My very dear friend is in the hospital and it's bad and his shitty mom has blocked visitors and I don't know if I'll ever see him again

Going back to my normal life after spending 5 days surrounded by love and fun and low responsibility is very difficult and I feel kinda broken about it

Predators will say I love you just to fuck

Omw to saginaw>grand rapids>chicago to see ppl i love and the sailor moon superlive hype hype hype hype

I wish feelings followed logic. Logically I know I have friends, logically I know I'm attractive. Emotionally I struggle with these things.

Im already starting the unhealthy obsessing, time to reel myself back in. Ope, now my car needs fixing. Ope, bestie might bail on trip cuz she's sick and you spent 600 dollars on tickets for a show amd someone is counting on seeing you. Cool. No need to stress here, it's your birthday *confetti*

I JUST heard about this movie like 2 days ago and i was flipping out it looks so funny

The idea of me, one they can project femininity and womanhood onto, is always more fun than the reality of me lol

Sometimes i forget there's a reason I don't keep many cishet friends and then I flirt with a straight boy and oop.

Bestie Spa day with t. Wrecka

Only if you do me too

Mood

I miss dates and kisses and cuddling on the couch after a long day. I miss falling asleep next to someone and waking up next to them. I miss the absolute knowledge that I am cherished. I miss being touched and held and wanted

Being single is both easy and difficult. I really miss feeling desired but also it's so nice to just do what I want and not have to try n make scheduled weekly time w someone

So cute

Today was emotionally taxing

Getting invited, then uninvited to stay at someone's house, then trying to handle it gracefully and now things are strained and I'm just trying to be good idk

Galaxy family city club night!

Fresh hair!

Meatloaf, mashed potatoes, and sauted asparagus for dinner!

My emotions are wild and I'm exhausted

Bouncing back and forth between "eventually someone will love me romantically the way I need to be loved" and "i don't need or want to be loved romantically ever again" is exhausting and can't i just enjoy the connections i have now without pining for and/or dreading something I don't have?

I'm choosing to release things that no longer serve me, things that hurt me, and things I no longer want. I want to move forward in a safe environment surrounded by love and support and clear, effective, timely communication.

I'm o b s e s s e d. Lunaria at ink escape in Macomb is so so good yall.

Tattoo time with Lunaria