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Anyway, now I can actually try to run my shop and develop more my business ideas, so I think it's a very good thing? I can now try things at full time so I'm excited about it.

TL;DR: Job got bad and triggers several PTSD (also I'm just learning I have PTSD) so bad I want to die several times. Now I'm on sick leave and will think if I should quit or just reduce my hours.

Thank you again for all of your supporting comments and sorry again for this long ass thread that is maybe a novel at this point. I do feel better knowing I'm not alone and that listening to my gut feeling was the correct choice.

Talking about trauma and suicide several times today and explaining at varying degrees my plans to die was much more tiring than I expected but also maybe because I didn't sleep much either. Anyways, I should be ok maybe tomorrow and resume on working on the shop.

Fixing the guitar's strap

I mean, even ideation is already a pretty bad sign, but I'm glad you unpacked it. It also took years to me to realize I was doing pretty bad.

I called the hotline as well but never got to the emergencies during a very tough period, I was meant to change jobs but somehow ended up in food industry again. And now I can see it wasn't a good idea.

I'm glad you're doing better now with your new job. I'll go checl later yeah. Big hugs too!

Thank you, that's very kinf of you 💗
My main reasons is that I want to stay for my family and friends, and art is also a big part of my life.

Verry sorry to hear that, I'm glad you're doing better with therapy and medication.

Yeah now I have three weeks to think more about it and see what would be best for me. So at least that's that.

It was my birthday yesterday and I forgot to make a post, but you guys already know what the best b-day present for an artist is 😊💖

プトレマイオス

Meant to work on this a bit earlier as a thanks for 2.5k (now 2.6k) followers, but got distracted with some medical stuff going on.

Thank you everyone for your support! I'm excited to work on even more art this month.

New card back design for the 3rd Sefirot Tarot edition 🌟

【モグラの穴掘り】 一瞬で土の中に潜っていく土の竜 YouTube video by もぐらチャンネル/Lives with a Mole

This day has been a bit rough and I'm still pretty confused at what I did but I'm glad Youtube is recommending me cute little mole video. Look at this little fella digging holes and eating worms, so cute!!

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zimy...

#trigun

It won't stop raining here in Wales so I'm left with no choice but to blame the Welsh water horse tricksters for it

Seraph in the Headlights

Ho thanks for the link!

Yeah it really sucks, I hope we can both sort out things and find something better! *hug*

Thank you Raz, yeah I'll go search something else. Clearly I can't work in food service at all. I'm glad you got a better job environment 💗

Nah I just told everything, it's ok I just cried a bit :')

Merci c'est gentil à toi, et oui je suis bien entourée 😊💗

taiyaki together ♡

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Talked to another coworker and they also don't want to work here anymore lol. The thing is that nobody has a defined post so everyone is doing everything. It's a complete mess and we're all tired.

I'll have time to think more about what I'll do next so for now, it's just a bit of resting.

Anyway, I'm on sick leave for three weeks. Cried in front of my superior because I wanted to tell them everything and they're supportive. Almost cried at the doctor but it's ok now.

Trauma and mental illness don't exist here in this family apparently. Had to internalize all that shit for years, all so I can try to die, but I don't look suicidal enough apparently.

My mother to me: "you don't look sick/suicidal"
What do you want me to do? Jump off a building or something 💀?

Thank you so much Agui 🫂❤️❤️
I hope so too.