alex

a matching grabbable set of boy handles, boy hips, and boy waist~ 💅

Possible last day of Hot Fox Summer today!

www.twitch.tv/haurbus

real

(Shugorend goes hard tho fr fr)

shugoslam into the wall like a plush full of milk

this is perhaps the wildest one i've seen yet omfg

You know, it's funny, I went to bed feeling... happy, at peace. I wasn't really expecting that.

I think the post-credits scene broke me the most out of the whole ending. Because in the literal "universe esplode" sense, I tend to prefer believing in Big Bounce (the idea that it explodes and retracts over and over in an endless loop, i.e. no heat death). And in the metaphorical sense, I add on to the phrase "all good things must come to an end" with "so that new good things have a chance to start." And it was incredibly... validating and comforting to see the game also take that route.

(CW sorta spoilers for messaging, made text small and dark-on-dark to try to obscure it, read alt instead) i've written like 3-4 pages of thoughts so far, but this is like one of the really big takeaways at the front of my mind right now.

it's once again past 2am & i have work in the morning, & I've definitely been feeling sleep deprived so I need to make sure I don't push it any further, but i've written down most of my immediate post-game thoughts that i'm worried about forgetting to write later. still got more to process tho.

fuck I need a hug

f u c k

Fuck.

gotta love pay-to-win systems (randomly noticed my rank went up apparently to known today lmao)

weylp, now 11.7 hours in, feeling a little stuck, there's a few places i still haven't really figured out how to cover, i exhausted like every last place i had to still explore that was new that i know of, just in time for it to be 2am again and should go to bed (and thus have fresh eyes tomorrow).

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gimme a kiss if u agree :03

If he wants to speak as if he's not removed from the workload, I got this for him: Github CEO Thomas Dohmke wants to tell you how to run your career when he can't even keep his website running functionally for longer than a week at a time.

at least in this case i strongly prefer this preoccupation over the other.

what was preoccupation with sad thoughts is now preoccupation with anxiousness for a few separate-but-connected things, one to finish the game, two to try to reconnect with someone, and three to come clean with some deep thoughts about someone else.

for the first night in several nights i dont feel as cripplingly preoccupied with the same sad thoughts over and over. my mind feels much more clear. starting this now asap and locking in with headphones (i almost *never* game with them on) and no streams unmuted except during breaks was the play.

6.7 hours later and i.
am a lil fried from certain puzzly bits and the red-yarn corkboard.
but am also piecing together what's going on. especially a lot of the uh. foreshadowing. 🙃.

alex played outer wilds for the first time.

im sorry in advance...

i would travel the world for a hug right about now

it is really hard to emotionally mask today. i can barely focus on work. i'm able to hold it for maybe 10-20 minutes at a time, and then everything just overwhelms me again.
what is wrong with me. why can't i move past this. it's never been this bad or overwhelming.

still not doing the 18+ verification tho. sorry, not risking identity theft sending my fuckin shit to a shady third party that had literally experienced data breaches in the past.

I think I'm going to say fuck it and get vrc+. Historicallly had been jaded with a lot of things about vrc and had not been wanting to get it because of that, but at this point my use and reliance on it is outweighing my gripes with it, especially since those largely stem from entry, not now.

Anxiety fox, tightly curled up, saying "I hope my best is enough"

i hopy my best is enough

If you've been putting off playing Outerwilds, play it when you can. It's worth it.

yeah going to bed sad kinda sucks actually.

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