Ron 🔪

at some point I have to learn not to say 'I'm feeling better' ever again because whatever devil has cursed me is fucking listening

my life just punished me severely for saying 'things are getting better' again. hate it.

I gotta choose whether to to play dragon age or expedition 33 next

made it almost to the end of bg3 then stopped because I can't stomach the idea of actually finishing it rip

it turned out amazing hak!

It's been a while, but I can slowly feel some life returning to my body, feeling a little bit more like myself

Tsunami warning AND a severe tropical storm on the way? Fuck me sideways

My stupid little shit brain is so used to things being bad and getting worse that it's having the worst anxiety ever at the prospect of a light at the end of the tunnel

At this point it feels like my brain has been pan fried. All my joints hurt so fucking bad.

guess who's had heatstroke legit 3 times in a week

Man remember when I used to have dreams and think I could have a good life? Haha.

my therapist emotionally cracked an egg for me today and I had a massive realization about something I didn't know I was doing my whole life. Jarring but important wow

game conferences

My entire digestive system is on fire from my throat to my stomach. Heartburn is God's worst punishment

Recently I've been like repeating to myself "you're safe, you're not in danger" like a scared animal any time I feel my stress response go off (which is a lot) and it's weirdly kind of working

Living with a fried sympathetic nervous system is so odd

like father like daughter #CAINrpg #CAINttrpg

growth can feel like grief and thats okay

Downside: there's been black mold in my shower

No better feeling than using a whole product up. Like fuck yeah. Just finished a bottle of bleach and feel like a million bucks

I fell asleep in an internet cafe and had sleep paralysis lmao

haters will put a blanket over your cage to make you think it’s bedtime

I was having fun just venting on tumblr then they shadowbanned me and won't unfuck it 🤪

I'm going through the worst time of my life right now completely alone. I feel utterly broken. I don't think I'm going to make it

John Wick series are such good comfort movies

I think the reason I can't date is because sharing custody of my ocs with a spouse would be difficult

was really sad today. I was crying a lot, and then it started gently snowing outside.

sigh 😞

they should shut down every social media site and force us all to get a life tbh

I will uninstall with learning and therapy but God it sucks

If I had a time machine I'd go back to 1994 and punch my mother

God it sucks so bad to be aware of your mental health like "ah I act and feel this way because I was raised to believe I have no worth and every mistake would net a brutal punishment" great how do I uninstall