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Tempted to make a little sketch of the "retired" B2 battle droid I adopted off a sad infomercial in a dream recently. He was not well domesticated, but did his best.

It is a digital sketch of Sephiroth and Aerith. She is holding his hand as she guides him away, through a golden field. He is holding a sheathed blade decorated by pink ribbons and bows, while she is holding her staff, which is also decorated by a less nicely tied pink ribbon. She is smiling, while he looks slightly perplexed.

trying to push myself
#ffvii #sephiroth #aerith

Keep calling. This issue can't die.

It starts with delisting games, but the likely goal is to enact a new morality police that can silence marginal groups and anyone who speaks out against the status quo.

The payment processors are feeling the squeeze! Let your voice be heard!

Rung building a Gundam RX-78-2 HG 1/144 gunpla (I thought it would be funny) 🤷

#transformers #maccadam

A brightly coloured, messy digital artwork with large visible brush strokes. A large purple-grey hand (artist is colourblind; forgive me) dangles a human figure by their ankles in a pinch grip. The human is limp. A block of text reads: "Your curiosity was an error. I will show you truths your fickle species will never know."

Thinking about him 💕

#Shockwave #Transformers #Maccadam #digitalart

It's likely a combo of my wack metabolism + taking the first pill at 6am (if I'm on schedule). My day starts EARLY, I need ~14-16 hours of med coverage to gave a good day.

I am on modified/extended release, but I STILL need the booster dose! (my metabolism...cruel!!)

My first pill runs out of my system by 3-4pm, taking a small booster at ~noon with/just after food keeps me from crashing hard, and wears off by bedtime if I do it right.

A brightly coloured digital drawing. Two highly stilised cat-like forms are in front of a large futuristic computer-like structure. The "cat" (Soundwave) on the left stands with a tall, arched back. The cat on the right (Shockwave) sits on the righthand side, and is missing the left foreleg. A grey and red pigeon (Laserbeak) sits on the computer in the back. A holographic display behind Shockwave displays a stylized version of an X-ray displaying Soundwave's interior, including the outline of cassette tape. Large pink text (Shockwave's voice) reads, "You have scoliosis".

you have scoliosis.

#Shockwave #soundwave #chonkwave #Transformers #Maccadam

Worst thing about adhd meds is the crash when I miss my lunchtime booster dose. Just that sinking, empty, hot restlessness that makes joy want to weep but doesn't let you.

Hello, and thank you!

This has been rattling around my brain for a few weeks now.

bsky.app/profile/kaon...

Been driving my spouse insane with this (very loud, very repetitive) vocal stim for the past month or so. He's been encouraging us to draw it for weeks. Love a bit of skunkage.

A brightly coloured digital drawing of a (purple) skunk stretched across the seat of a (green) pram. Large text around the central image read "SKUNK IN THE PRAM!" The artist's tag "@kaonarvna" and the date "09 08 2025" are hidden in the image.

SKUNK IN THE PRAM, SKUNK IT UP
LITTLE GUY IS STUNKIN'
AND THE WHEELS ARE THUMPIN'
LOOK AHEAD, THE SKUNK IS BUMPIN'

#art #originalart #digitalart #cuteart #animalart #lgbtartist

Sephiroth's face (pale skin, green cat-like eyes, long grey hair framing his face) can be seen peering into a microwave and observing the contents inside. A dish of orange pasta rotates on the glass plate inside. The art is made digitally with chunky brush strokes and highly saturated colours.

mmMMMMMMM

Next section of SMIM is up and finished!

#sephiroth #genesisrhapsodos #ff7 #ffvii #fanfiction

archiveofourown.org/works/581316...

'I Will Not Be My Mother's Son.'

If the apple doesn't fall far from the tree, then it will crawl to greener pastures.

#art #malentiposts #originalart

Adding "money/transformers/etc" to the list of essays I need to write, lmao. The list includes "workplace ableism" and "sidewalk painkillers". Real fun bangers mixed in with essays about my dead cats.

My original writing is a real fun time for everyone.

I think it's also part of the list of cultural differences I've noticed between myself and UK born folk. I've had to learn to call in sick. Learn to go to the doctor before it gets to the emergency stage. Learn that social safety nets exist. That, most people don't live in fear of death by debt.

About to type myself into crying.

Money is so hard. Having money trauma is such a strange thing. People I've discussed it with in the past have said "saving too much" isn't a problem.

It's not that I saved too much, it's that I didn't spend unless it was for survival. Constantly saving to survive.

And I think about that sometimes. How, if left to my own devices, if I didn't get that therapy, I'd probably be putting sheets of plywood over my problems to save for the "real emergency".

I still hoard money. I'm still ready for crisis, always. But now I also buy candy, nice food, and toys.

My father used to tell me I got it from my grandfather. He lived in a trailer, and covered holes in the floor with sheets of plywood instead of getting them properly fixed. Lived isolated, and relatively alone. Fell through a hole in the plywood one day, ended up in care. Had a giant stock of cash.

Growing up my brain was trained to "save everything you can. that emergency expense is just around the corner. one misstep and your world could end. that fiver might be the difference between life and death. you need to be prepared, so you never need to ask for help.". I'm still unlearning.

I think it's the sort of logical conclusion/evolution to all the therapy I got a couple years ago regarding my spending. Used to only spend money on bare essentials. Constantly scrimping/saving/not even buying "little treats". Didn't buy takeaway the first two years I lived in the UK even.

Having a spouse who had a normal/not impoverished childhood, as well as just...being an adult with expendable income is strange. I think it suddenly clicked in my head last October that I can just, have things that I want. I can get things that make me happy to look at, that I couldn't growing up.

I've built plenty of minis, I've built massive yolopark modelkits...but this is the first time I've ever actually bought Legos. It's made me a bit emotional in the "little boy gets nice toy" sort of way.

Anyway, I caved and bought Lego Soundwave. He's in the box. He's sitting on my couch, waiting for the day I choose to build him (the weekend, probably).

I've never done a Lego kit before. Never had that sort of access/opportunity as a kid. I'm very excited.

Watching someone 100% ultrakill so I can inject more hot robots into my veins.

Slowly feeling more and more defeated each time I look at current events/the news/etc. Rumination really doesn't help. Can't control letting it circle in my mind until I'm hopeless and exhausted.

And I've lost weight, yes, which is quite bad. But scrambling to put mass back on is a price I'm willing to pay for having better control over my life again, yknow? It's SUCH a huge difference. How much more could I have done with my time if I was diagnosed decades earlier?

I know it's probably one in three things I talk about on here, but I truly cannot understate the impact ADHD meds have had on my life.

I'm able to work on projects I've had for years, and enjoy them. I'm able to relax. I've started talking to friends again. I've stopped crashing at the gym.

SMIM 5 will probably go out this weekend! Just have to do the last wee round of edits, art is sorted, etc.

Art to accompany next section of HER GIFT IS NOT ABSOLUTION is also sorted for later in the month.

Very productive day today. Well pleased with myself.

SMIM 5 is finally at the editing stage, nearly ready to be popped up! We love to see it, we really do. It's been MONTHS.