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Everything feels wrong . Grief is too small a word for what I feel. I just keep numbing , keep trying to distract away from it but nothings working . I want to embrace her life and the legacy she left on all of us , but right now, I’m just fucking angry. And heartbroken. My friend is gone. 💔

Oh okay .

There’s nothing else you can do right now. Go home . Get some sleep. You can come back tomorrow.

Oh , honey . I’m sorry . But I also understand that feeling .

I’m struggling with reading tonight . Too much nervous energy .

I just can’t make sense of this .

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Sending you love .
I am about here , right now.

And this is it ! Such a phenomenal series .

Reading one of the first series my friend gave to me to read , that changed how I see fantasy as a genre . I’m also reading it to feel connected to her. Keep the good memories alive .

Going to try to read now . My brain isn’t locked in but I’m going to try .

I’ll be a person tomorrow and handle everything I’ve been putting off and putting off . I don’t have the energy or emotional bandwidth right now to function.

Every fucking day so far feels like this.

Alabanza.

I’m heartbroken and hurting and I feel so helpless right now .

I hate that I miss you and can’t even talk to you .

Jon Stewart on the media's inability to analyze shootings beyond a simplistic left-right political paradigm

I hate this timeline .

Love you, sweetheart. You’re not alone. Neither of us are.

C wait what ?! That’s a thing ??? I’m replaying II now!!!

* melts* * melts some more * also , I love this photo! So lovely !

I feel this. I really do. You’ll have me. And I got your back. Whatever you say to whoever, I got you. Even if I’m included in that list of people you need to go upside one side of and down the other.

Fuck who you’re supposed to be. Be who the fuck you are . Feel what you feel and never , ever , dim that light .

I need several drinks right now to deal with all these thoughts and feelings.

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I didn’t think two different songs on “ Am I the drama?“ would have me in tears, but here we are.

Nope. Not at all.

I had things to do today . Kinda bummed out now.

I don’t have anything on hand but ginger ale and ginger / lemon tea . But I can once I get something.

New med has slowed my heart rate down. That’s great . It’s also made me super nauseous. Less great.

I miss the days when Obama could just post his summer playlist instead of dire warnings.