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I got someone 4 u,,

you should stop drawing if this is what you decide to make

here's fresh

dude why did I stop cutting I love it sm

I'm hungry

I need to I need to I need to I need to I need to I need to I need to

its fucking screaming at me to cut it but I have to wait I hope the feeling doesn't go away I know how to make it return but it kinda sucks so it goes

can't wait until I shave my legs I need to cut again gonna be a few days of waiting tho ugghhhhhh

ofie try to be normal challenge,,,, I can't!!!! it's impossible!!!!!! brain doesn't work so well ig wowza can't wait to get it checked out brain just oof brain just aaaaaaaa some stability would be nice

but it really wasnt anything but it was the most Ive done in forever I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I would give anything to always feel like that just the simple ability to do something I can its so easy to do things so why dont I

no wonder I basically got dependent on methylphenidate so easily the ability to do more is addictive the ability to do something is addictive the ability to do anything is addictive I hate how little I do why is it so hard to do anything why is it so hard to do something I finally got something done

I do what I can and it is not enough I can do more I do not know if I can do more I do not have a choice I have to do more I hate it all I can't take the day in day out of endless monotony every day feels the same every day is as pointless as the last I think that's really the reason

I do not know if it will fix anything I do not know if it will lead anywhere I do not know if I can get it done I do not know if I can do it I do not know if it will be worthwhile I do not know if it will give my life some semblance of satisfaction I do not know if I will be able to do it I do not k

but there seems to be only so much I actually do at the end of the day I do nothing at the end of the week I do nothing I am nothing I hate it with everything I am I need more this is not enough but what else can I do I start college again soon I do not know what will happen I do not know if it will

I need to do more as soon as I can but I feel as if I am barely scraping by I make rent I pay off my credit card and I pay off the electric bill and I have so little I have so little it takes most of my energy to meet my most basic needs and I have no energy left but I need more I would do anything

this life I have is not enough I need more but I hardly know where to begin where to go what to do but I know how I am is not enough but it is all I can do now it is all I can do for now how long will I have to work until it becomes satisfying how hard will I have to work to be satisfied, too long

my knees look a little funny

here's fresh

blood >>>> stickers or whatever

I hate bluesky's content warnings don't make that mandatory that's so stupid

dried is nice in its own way

my head needs to work better I must remember I must never forget

I'm hungry but also full I need to vomit

I need to take my roommates adhd meds I NEED TO TAKE MY ROOMMATES ADHD MEDS I won't but I really wanna they're so nice I love those things she never should've let me try them she has so few left and no refills but I need them I love those things but I can't I can't but I have to

I need to bleed soon but its always such a process everything needs to be perfect and it won't be until next week prob unless maybe I make it happen

I could be crazier but I think I need to be more sane but I think something needs to change I know something needs to change

and I did!! display name was aaaa bad good job changing it

I should change my username

my eyes are tired

having no followers is so freeing too many people I've met irl follow me on twitter it really limits certain things