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Not gonna bother hiding them, since I've very obviously cut all over my face before which of course I wasn't able to hide and nobody asked about it, so I doubt this will be any different

Slit my wrists for the first time today. These motherfuckers bleed like nobody's business

LMAO LMAOOOO LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Did you know that everyone you know is evil and actually wants you to suffer horribly? Just thought that was interesting

Life hasn't been worth living for a long time and it's only going to get worse jsyk

Granted I have been getting better at reminding myself that she's a miserable childish person and I don't need to let the things she says/does get to me. But it still hurts knowing how willing she is to hurt me whenever she feels like it, which is often

My mom makes me want to kill myself at least once every day of my life

I'm so fucking pissed I can't go on a walk bc it's 4 fucking °f outside. I really don't want to stay inside all day

Wonder how my ma would feel if she knew that the majority of the time when I beat or scratch or cut myself it's because of her. She'd probably find some way to blame, belittle and invalidate me anyway lol

Jesus Christ man. Jesus Cocksucking Christ

Anyway sorry for being a retarded faggot and saying shit that makes no sense and has zero value or meaning I promise I'll kill myself over it one day. Goodnight ❤️

Life is so finite and fleeting and rich and beautiful that it is the worst, most disgusting insult to it and yourself to not do everything in ur power to enjoy it and make the best life for yourself, especially if that motivation not to stems from others harmful actions. And yet lmao.

"hey yeah so I know ur reading up on things u think are interesting and having fun with that but also keep in mind that everyone knows ur inherently pathetic and useless. So yeah u should stop that bullshit ur doing n start punching urself now"

There's something inherently disgusting and hateable about me I think. Not sure what exactly all I know is that I'm simply worthless and revolting and embarrassing. Just feels right

It's like "hey are u reading a book right now? Are u making a snack? Are u doodling? Watching yt? That's so fucking retarded lol kill urself" like damn!! Ok tho lol I'm too tired to fight man

Like I've been kinda just keeping my thoughts and joys to myself for a long time but I'm beginning to not be able to even do that anymore. Years ago I'd do something small to have some fun n it made me feel good but nowadays it makes me feel bad about myself

Hmm so this is what it feels like to believe that you're worthless and embarrassing and everything you like and do is worthless and embarrassing and thus don't enjoy expressing yourself. Awesome

Might just have to pull a "fuck you all and fuck me as well. Merry Christmas. Check your bathroom now." this holiday season

I want to die man. I'm so sick of being myself it just ain't worth it if this is what I get in response. People are pathetic fucking parasites. Sucking up all ur life force, bleeding u dry, and then telling u that ur the fucking freak actually

Invalidation is way too strong man. I'm slowly becoming ashamed of everything I do no matter what. This is what "family" gives you

The funniest thing baaulp ever did was when he said something completely unintentionally and slightly homophobic on stream and when immediately confronted about it responded by saying "listen I'm looking at an orange I gotta go eat this orange" and only rectified his mistake minutes later

Invalidation and dehumanization are such common things that come from truly insecure miserable people in order to make more insecure miserable people and it's a pretty hard cycle to break. "If they can do it why can't I?" Because u don't need to be weak, u don't need to be a needless pain generator.

Me when the harmful things people do/say to me that aren't fair do not exist in a vacuum and I'm a person with a valuable life who is entitled to enjoy and be myself, and I can do anything I want to live a better life and my mistakes and others poor criticisms of me do not utterly define me

It's the falseness and facade of it all that gets me the most. Very scary, very paranoia inducing, very much making me distrust and hate everyone

Me when people who act decent enough usually by default but have proven to not care about my thoughts and feelings as a person don't need to matter in my life and they and the things they do/say only have as much power over me as I let them *starts ripping my face skin off like that one painting*

CUTEST SMARTEST GOOFIEST OLD TWINK IN WORLD

HES SO COOL I NEED HIM

God he's so fucking hot dude he's seriously the number 1 baddest bitch from Any cartoon Ever

Hey why the fuck have I not seen the "Can you believe it guys? Christmas, just a week away! Christmas is in a week! Woo-hoo! I am so happy about this information. Christmas, just a week away. Oh, wow! Can you believe it? Christmas, just in a week! It got here so fast! Christmas, just a-" video yet.

Another recent realization I had is that even tho I spend most days in bed with a walk per day and am still miserable and exhausted constantly is cuz I'm never actually resting or chilling out, I'm always stressing and so sad/scared/angry/disgusted/empty. worst part is only Some of its irrational