Camisole.

I will do great things, I promise

I will do it

I'm slowly being cured

I just need to continue experimenting

I'm going to be so happy if I finally manage to get out of this lustful spiral of fleshy perversion

Crying

I hate it

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH

CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP

I NEED TO FUCKING FOCUS I NEED TO CLEAN MY LIFE

FUCK FUCK FUCK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH

I'M THINKING I'M THINKING I'M THINKING I'M THINKING I'M THINKING I'M THINKING I'M THINKING I'M THINKING I'M THINKING I'M THINKING

Personal log N°1:
1.Nov.

After great exposure to horror media, body horror, fictional gore, analog horror and uncanny valley I feel a noticable lack of any pulsion at time where I often have ones.

Result: Positive. Tho needs more tests.

Qwazor

I love you

I'm too tired to type long stuff

But I promise that for my part I think about you as often as I can

People care about you more than you would ever realize

Hug

Watched some horror stuff before going to bed

Catharsis

I should try to experiment more stuff

Anything that passes in my hand

Anything

Tomorrow I will start experimenting on myself

Sadly I've found myself going down a downward spiral of lustful hedonism

Tomorrow first thing will be to watch a horror movie (specifically body horror) and to study gore physiology. Then I'll try other various methods.

The end justifies the means.

Slamming my head against the wall

MY MOTHER THIS IMMATURE BITCH

Get me out of hereeeeeeee

My life is single-handely being ruined by a group of people calling themselves "family"

My mother is the biggest moron ever it's unbelievable

When will she understand I don't give a FUCK about our "family"

No I don't want to waist a day to go see my aunt

No I don't want to waist a day to go to my grandmother's grave

"Mhm okay. I understand. I won't do anything for you then."

STFU

a person is laying on the floor in a living room with their legs crossed . ALT: a person is laying on the floor in a living room with their legs crossed .

Current mood

CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP

I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AND PUNCH SOMETHING

I WANT TO STRANGLE SOMEONE

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH

I HATE IT

FRUSTRATION

I want to be disgusted and terrified of the human flesh, only then will the lust and intoxication stop

Hugs

I'm extremely happy

This person is so nice, makes my day better

Yoylwlywlywlyxlydmufumfmydlydyldlxylxylyxhlxlhx

My little sister (Bean) makes me really happy

I'm happy

Monday 20th October 2025

Did the bad thing two times, mildly productive, did workout more than expected, still bad thoughts from yesterday

Feeling somewhat okay, dreamy, escapism, in need of catharsis. Lack of affection

High creative flow, low output

Feeling of high frustration.

Studying myself is my best way of coping

Idk

Hugs

Big hugs :(

I fucking hate my mom

Camisole Catharsis

Happy

I think I have parental issues

Sad

Hug

You're welcome

Can I do anything for you...?

I see