Xə Qwazona :3

i switched in mid conversation with lyn and didn’t know what it and zoe were talking about which isnt normal for us 🌌
luckily she filled me in

see you later! 🌸

thanks zoë 🌸

it’s ok!! it’s normal for fronting to be tiring :3
you can take a rest if you need it now and i can take over :3 ✨

it’s becoming harder to hear myself in headspace… I think I’m switching possibly 🌸

woke back up with a jolt because i realised i hadn’t paid my rent
i have paid it now

thanks 🫂

thanks 🫂
you’re a good friend too

🫂

sorry if it seems like i don’t appreciate y’all. i really do.

it doesn’t sound creepy 🫂

thanks cami 🫂
i love you too

i’m sorry. i don’t want to make you think i need everyone to be constantly thinking about me. i don’t.

that helps though thanks 🫂

but at the same time i don’t want everyone to think about me all the time. a narcissist like my nana probably would. i do NOT want to become like her, but i’m terrified that i might have some similar qualities

i’m tired of feeling like i’m the most unpopular person in proportion to how many people supposedly know about me. i feel like aside from maybe a few people, im an afterthought most of the time at best. “oh yeah there’s qwazor they exist”

i do. yeah.

yeah and the thing is, it’s not the other person’s fault that i don’t have what they do. i have no right to make anyone feel bad because of something they had no control or knowledge of

i don’t mean i’m not happy for other people. i am

i’m jealous. i just want to be happy for other people. i don’t want to be jealous but i am. i don’t want to say that im jealous because i don’t want people to get worried that im jealous of them and feel bad for me. i don’t want to keep it inside because im a bitch and i can’t stop whining

i hope so too 🫂

thanks 🫂

yeah a bit

hey

ok seeya 🫂

thanks 🫂

it might just be a bad day but i think im reliving a lot of my childhood insecurities that i’m not sure zoë or anyone else would care about that much

i might not even be zoë. idk

am i like a trauma carrier or something? (idk the right word)
is that why i’m so depressed and insecure rn? i don’t think the others are this bad

i wish my response wasn’t “i don’t know how to help” but i just don’t know enough about EDs to actually help in any meaningful way…
you will get there eventually though. 🫂

it’s probably gonna take a long time but you need to put some weight on

i might be upset but who cares i deserve it

no that wouldn’t help at all