Doublesheen

Spent a significant portion of this evening planning a holiday that I almost definitely won't take and then discovering more books to add to my shelf.

probably would've been a good idea to actually check the sizes of my chair and desk before replacing the broken chair

when you're in a 2-person session of Peak and you hear your friend say they just got the achievement for resurrecting 3 people in a single run

over the last year i got into a routine with youtube and was enjoying the series that i was doing but now that i'm hearing google wants to use videos to train ai i don't want to be there. i have no idea what i'll end up doing with future video ideas when their bs inevitably push me off the platform

i see mother

checking out my stats on bhvr's new tracker for dbd and i can't help but feel like something went wrong here

Now I'm in a situation where my eyes have adjusted to the new glasses/lenses so I can't wear the old ones without getting headaches, but the new ones are causing eye strain in less than 30 mins use. Can't get re-tested til Monday and it'll be at least 2 weeks for correct lenses to arrive.

Even though I'm fully conscious of the fact I need to compartmentalize this project in order to get anywhere, any time I open it my mind refuses to split it into more manageable pieces. The size of the entire thing then gets overwhelming. And no progress gets made.

Discovered something helpful this afternoon and I now have a new found hope on this project. To the point that I'm finally setting myself a rough deadline of September 30th. Of course I have very little idea of what I'm getting into so setting such a deadline is a terrible idea.

i failed my eye exam so i have to do another

might have to cancel all of my future projects before the first one even begins because of one tiny stupid fucking problem that i can't fix and nowhere seems to have an answer for why this keeps breaking. these projects were literally one of my only sources of joy over the last two weeks.

feel like i've somehow tested wrong on my eye exam cause these new glasses are just not it

Was lurking a Clair Obscur stream and as soon as they met Maelle for the first time a bunch of non-followers started making comments about her age and that "it's ok" and immediately had to leave. Men feel way too comfortable saying paedo shit out loud.

At this point there's no saving the Labour party. Let it die. Anyone with principles would've left them by now.

been getting very excited for some new creative projects i've been drafting and today got hit by the "this is a field i haven't looked too much into before, how do i know that my ideas haven't already been done? what if i accidentally plagiarize?"

this kind of energy from the brain is not helpful

the gnomes talk to you and i don't liek their voices

so I somehow chose the name Gemma for myself a full year before my egg cracked (it makes sense i swear) and i've been happy with it, except for the last two weeks where out of nowhere my brain just started saying "what if I was a Sophie? Being called Soph by friends would be nice"

"BARCLAYS is to ban trans women from using female lavatories in the wake of this month’s Supreme Court ruling." [Telegraph]

Thankyou. What's on my mind is a plan I had considered as a possibility for a few years already, it's just that events over the last couple of weeks have fast-tracked it into a reality. Currently reading up on the situation and trying to figure out how real this idea could be.

ok so i can't take my mind off of it, i am constantly in a state of imagining how i'd handle the worst case scenario and my last possible option, and now i'm in a constant state of anxiety because i'm thinking about it so much my brain has tricked itself into thinking it's going to happen

It seems inevitable now that at some point in the future I will have to move to another country. I just can't wrap my head around the logistics of it or even figure out exactly where would be safe to go.

over 350 hours in rdr2 and what do you mean i only just found out there's a poodle

started sneezing regularly earlier and thought i'm okay with this, now i know better what kind of illness i'm dealing with atm

i just sneezed in the middle of drinking.
i am no longer okay with this.

for years i never used the schedule feature on the twitch profile. last week i finally did it. this week i've only met one day of the schedule because a meeting took me out of the first day and a mysterious mouth-related illness began yesterday.

saying "this was nice, we should do this again next year" as we're eating our pancakes

finally got round to watching elimination chamber and this is absolutely the most pathetic wrestling crowd i've ever witnessed. no noise. no enthusiasm. any attempt at a chant sounds like 3 losers in a pub that nobody wants to acknowledge.

update on the situation earlier. i have now uploaded every finished video i have in my backlog and this has left me with only 5 unreserved upload dates in May to cover literally any multiplayer stuff i do over the next 3 months. i think i have to change my schedule to daily uploads for just 1 month.

every day is covered between today and may 4th with the exception of april 6, 14, 26, and 30. 30 hasn't been recorded yet and if i can find an hour's break in my day the other 3 will be ready to be uploaded today. christ.

i've reached the point now where i've pre-uploaded so many videos to youtube that the stuff that went public 4 days ago isn't even visible on the first page any more

i have now discovered the fundamental issue of trying to edit sims 2 vods

it makes me want to open the sims 2 and keep playing