jun-system

little thing that need to be doted on,,,

Drawing of a puppy laying down next to a flower with the caption; "I will continue to be softer than the way life has treated me"

Puppy

💚 oh right yeah, with the new alters, we gotta update the alter info image ( probably also do an outright proper "pinned thread" too...!)

the tricky part's always "how to fit us all in the same frame?" & "how to balance/arrange us all?" haha

when you've got a non-human system of different sizes

Close Up of a sad, crying baby polar bear cub with pigtails. She's wearing a nightie, a diaper, and holding a stuffed bear.

Sad crying baby polar bear cub, wearing a dress and a diaper is venting out. She’s also holding a polar bear plush in her right arm, and has pig tails. She says: “WAAAAAAAH!!! I have so many BIG feelings!! Why did they ignore me, or make fun of me? Esp when I was crying?? Why was it my fault for having human emotions? Why was I flawed for being sad? Why wasn’t I worthy to be hugged when distressed? How come they expected me to know, when I was never taught? I… I was -sniff- just a child… I still am…! Sometimes I feel trapped.”

😢💦🌊

Cw: Childhood Neglect
#agere #trauma #healing #babyfur #littlefur #ageregression #diaper

well, so some of it we wanna shade differently so may be not tomorrow buuuuut

hey! i got energy and sharin it with jun and we got a quiet january to make up for~

an edit of the Hellraiser poster, where Lime (hi!) has drawn herself over Pinhead, with a cursed smile, while the Lament Configuration has been pasted over with some of our art. Tagline 1: Weird to Some. Artist to others. Movie title: You mean there's paws AND littlespace stuff? Tagline 2: We'll share our art.

💚okay so like we're loading up postybirb to fire like, a variety of art. probably tomorrow (dunno if i & jun'll get it all squared tonight)

gonna be extra careful to tag since i know i got like, different stuff we make art of (can tell diff types of our artworks have different groups liking)

🌗🌱🌧 need to be admitted

neeeeeeed Q.Q

🖤 It's saddening to watch, every time, when Jun becomes too afraid of a server. too certain she doesnt belong, because she cant think of anything good to say.

so its icon just sits there, a trigger, a reminder-string of her guilt and her percieved-being a pariah

mewtwo flying through the sky at night looking back annoyed because he felt something tingling on his foot (it’s me, i’m the reason)

it’s february 6th you know what that means

I found an old Mewtwo sketch when doing some looking around in my folders...!! could try to do something with this..

🌗 mewtwo day??

i'm never prepared for these pokemon-specific art days bnvkghkg

🌗 an adhd-in-waiting-mode day, but a healing day
strange combination in type of day ^_^; but right now.... the calm

🌗 ohhh i love this!! that sense of the fun >w< i've often sometimes imagine similar! episodic like "you're shrunk and stuck that way, can't be grown back to normal!" but then wanting "but i want character/self-insert to be in shrinky scenario again!"

thus just, full-size for no reason, but then...

🌗 need to be little more, be kiddie kitty

augh thoughts far away 💙

💚 [it me, lime] stuff'll get better

wing it, but wing it good~

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eye-catching, fancy, presentational, that can come later. likely if you're seeing this, you KNOW what she/we can and will create on sunnier mental health days!

jun's patreon. we'll figure it out as we go along.

patreon.com/jun_system

so, that's what i'll make us do next. proceed as not.

💽 there will never be a "perfect time", a perfected "opening night" that you have to line up perfectly to even be allowed. you just have to exist, to let yourself exist all flawed and broken

"ready or not" i know you're not ready. but this fear is going to keep us hanging. indefinitely not ready.

🌧️ QnQ rapid age-slides today

jealous of Arling & her... positive middlespace experience because *screams*

at least lemme switch to Laine so she can be depressed-quiet

or Elio so we can get shit done but no apparently i managed to scare him off!!

yup! Juby, the sunny side of Jun, THE ACTUAL SCARY ONE i hate this & i hate me!

🌱 for as much as Arling puts up the "i'm the spunky energetic to Laine's rainy melancholic", it's... UGH my teen-mode that, i get so fucking, prickly-angry moody and i hate it, it goes against who i want to be and that just makes me even more distressed

This is us completely, both "bad at messaging first" and also "bad at remembering to message back" ^^;

💫 funny how like, Jun was the result of alters merging, out of those who spawned out of J's death, and now once again we're like, a group split from Jun

but we're specialized in different ways than the last group. needs are different, and Jun didn't have to die to make us!

💫 It'z so nice, the times Jun or any of us are at acceptance, of who we are, how we are =w=

Being little, being creature, being shy, being cool, being odd, all of that. I wan us to feel like this more, more often, if we can.

A series of sketches depicting the Digimon from my dream. These Digimon do not exist from official sources. The designs are from the dream rather than my usual designing process. These sketches are made on Feburary 10th, 2023, the morning after, when the dream was still fresh. [1]A round, somewhat puck-shaped Digimon, Databasemon. He resembles a late 90's/early 2000's iMac, though with the classic Digimon eyes up front. He has a frayed cord that is connected to a wall socket. (Likely an Ethernet port, but how it's drawn could also be a coaxial port). [2]Underside view of Databasemon. In a concave area, is a screen and many buttons, including a keyboard! The screen has many windows open, showing nondescript data in crude sketch lines. [3]A feline Digimon with long, wild hair, Lairamon. She is posing with a relaxed swagger, a smile on her face. She is tall and wears what appears to be a dress-length skirt. Her skirt also seems to act as socks or spats for her clawed feet, with how only the claws are shown poking out from the fabric.

🌱💚 back in 2023, we/i had this dream what had new (non-canon) Digimon.

basically, i had turned into a Gatomon and trying to escape an evil version of my childhood friend's trailer house, when this other catlike digimon asked me to help her friend escape too

said friend was attached to the wall.

💫 I think the more we lean on using this thing, where our shakey motor control leadz to rougher lines, the more we can have jun & us loosen up, be less perfectionist about lines, sinze we can't do it on this (procrate) anyway

more sketches mean more candidates to turn later to illustration-pieces!

💫 It's a nice day so far~ Zigzagot a lot of stuff to do, and I uzed a lotta energy, but, we can make it work.

Art good. Friends who make art good. Zigzagood~

🌗 QnQ i have some really, really horrible nightmares some nights and tonight's...

Lime & Arling are much more likely to "glaze" our creative work, yet they hold back often, in order to not upset me. so i gotta work on accepting help, not being terrified to sound "not modest"

but, this whole thing is already a sign of progress in accepting help, so yee, my thoughts for now

it's gonna be so difficult promoting it once it's presentable (it's soo WIP/plain rn) because i have emotional difficulty pairing my own artwork with positive promotional language, always have