i feel like we are all, on every side, living through our villain origin stories.

I let myself be monotropic/hyperfocused for a while on genealogy. Now I need to move my body, lol.

I have a vulva on mine. 😁

That's a pretty color!

I sometimes wonder if the potted plants you can buy at the grocery store are genetically engineered to slowly die once you get them home no matter what you do. 🙄 Is that a thing? Planned obsolescence for plants? Or am I truly a black thumb?

I spent the most amazing day today in ventral vagal. What's that? That's where I'm not convinced a tiger is going to eat me 24/7. I always need a reason. It's either avoiding the news (FB) or my new HRT. Or the New Moon! Anyway, the stupid news is insidous, and now I'm scared of the tiger again. 🐅

This youngish old fart is exploring different platforms to get my parasocial fix. My Reddit handle is "Old Sugar" and I hate it. Meh.

Why is supplement math like toilet paper math? My brain is mush. Mondays are not for hard things, but I keep insisting.

I have to say, I'm sorely missing my blog platform on FB. I'm currently limiting my exposure to the news as I tend to take doom/gloom imperitives straight to heart. No barrier. I want to share my gifts, but I can't participate on a platform that simultaneously guts me. This one is no exception. 😞

YES!

Full moon always sneaks up on me. Why am I crying so much? Checks calendar...ohhhhh. 👌

#spooniesky #spoonie #spoontheory #spoons

This makes me so sad.

Art has a way of bringing me out of my own despair better than anything because I feel the artist reaching to connect with me through it, and they are always saying, "Here is my love, and it is for you, the viewer."

Artist: Evelyn Sprouse Rowe

Oh.

So maybe a bit of peace, then?

And another death cycle completes itself. ❤️

When I'm really unwell and can barely move around the kitchen, my bodymind defaults to being terrified, and I've been fighting that for years, thinking I must be insane. Yesterday, I made it through the fog to go, "Ok, brain, you win, yes, we're in trouble, we're probably gonna die. Now what?"...

For all the rhetoric we put out about rest and treating yourself well when you're sick - yeah that's ego talk. Our bodies are wise. Unfortunately, they still can't tell we don't live in saber-tooth tiger land....

Any prey animal worth its genetics will pretend to be well until it literally cannot because showing weakness means it'll probably be eaten. It knows this. We're prey animals, y'all. Soft, squishy beings that can't run very fast....

I had a thought, and my mind isn't quite clear yet, but all that anxiety I have - and I think others must have it, too - when I am really ill - it's totally normal.....🧵👇

In other news, water is wet.

Not again! It's my favorite!

Good humans take care of themselves, each other, the planet.

Art by Courtney Gosser

The only right answer is: not here, not ever.

I saw a piece about this on TV when I was 4, and it was super traumatic!

I'm with her.

Artist Huriana Kopeke-Te Aho

I'm famous! 😍

Terry Pratchett

My absolute favorite magical characters in books are those in worlds where magic absolutely exists but they've realized that hitting someone with a chair is simpler and more effective.
The Granny Weatherwax characters.