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PDX transit is really good at getting two connecting points to arrive exactly at the same time so people going both directions have to wait the full 15+ minutes for the next bus or train to arrive

I just wanna dig a hole and find cool old shit, why is that so much to ask for. It could be a bottle or a piece of metal or a trolley rail IDC just something!!!!

Okay. Okay okay okay.

I just got a text from my dad. He says they're watching a basketball game and they saw an ad for Cascade dishwasher... powder.

IS IT HAPPENING???

I always end back up at the old trolley system or fucking council crest

I just fuck up everything every time I try to help and Im tired of it like I ask I assume I try I do all the different ways and I always end up the problem but then when I don't help everyone's fucking mad so idk what to do anymore

They needed my help and I didn't know until it was basically check out time. now it's been like 12 hours since I've heard anything. I'm just so fucking mad at myself rn..... I hope they're okay I hope they were able to buy time somehow I hope the other people that help them got to them in time...

I woke up late today cuz I finally got to sleep and it turns out I shouldn't have cuz now it might be my fault my friend is fully homeless, like shelter hopping instead of just living day to day in a motel.

I deserve the pain Im inflicted

One thing I'd tell past me is to not try to be in a relationship because you're too fucked up to do it right. you'll just love people to death and be unable to show it the way that makes them feel how much you love them. That's not fair to them or you. Don't be a jerk. Isolate sooner.

What do I do when I'm totally alone? My mom doesn't know what to do with 31 year old suicidal me who hasn't live with her for 10 years but lives in another parents basement still. She got 2 fucked up kids and I know its my dad's fault but what do any of us do about it now?

Every millimeter I get closer to them and finally being able to do the things I normally can't do for them feels like another giant wedge... Wtf do I do besides be someone I'm not or not be with them which i literally cannot. Guess I'll die?

Why am I only awake when no one else is? Even the people that are usually up this late never are when I am. It's so fun. I don't blame anyone but me, it's just a stupid coincidence, I know.

I just feel like every time I try to do anything accommodating, I'm shut down and made to feel at fault for something I wasn't responsible for, yet all I craved was to mitigate it before it got shitty. That's how people want it to be apparently, playing victim in hopes I'll forgo my own autonomy.

To change that fart

I could use a nice week long snow day pls revive my soul chilly precipitation

Painting my nails always raises my charisma by at least 2 points

Just got a lot of college and mental shit to sort thru I guess, thank you tho, it means a lot 💛

I don't think I'm doing well rn

I do love standing outside the dutch bros and watching the line of plane lights coming in to land. Reminds me of the now blocked off areas my dad would take me to watch the planes take off and land with Wendy's nuggets in his bronco in the early 2000s. PDX was so different back then.

THIS

They cannot imagine waking up wanting to die every single day and going to bed as a child BEGGING any higher power that would listen to make things right.

Support Gleam's Producer, Mads Support Gleam's Producer, Mads

So I lost my day job back in august - just in time for my birthday lol - and I'm struggling financially.
I feel bad asking for help, I've got a lot of trauma around being a burden, and I can't help but remember there's folks out there in worse circumstances...
Even so, if you want: ko-fi.com/orethon

Top floor of the performance arts building at uni is p darn liminal in the evenings #liminalphotography

AH!

Dishwashers exist primarily to make living with traditional dinner ware easier. It's the anti-single-use-item machine.

The pods are like "but what if we force some single-use items into your routine?"

I think that's why I hate them so much.

Ever tried to drive to a Timbers, Thorns, or Blazers game? If we want to bring back crowds of people to downtown, we need to invest in TriMet.

🌟 very sad that my dear friend Jane Goodall has died. we were 1st in contact via fax letters to her home in Bournemouth, UK. we met in 1999, hit it off. she inspired me to write 3 songs: Counting On You, Roots & Shoots Everywhere and my tribute, Jane Jane (with her own chimp sounds). #RIPJaneGoodall

I love fucking up a photo with my phone so it looks like some early 2000s shit tho

I'd be Eric Andre's girlfriend

I wish I could trade places with my uncle. Even at twice my age, he has infinitely more to live for. Family, friends, students. There's no way I won't die from medical neglect anyways, so can I just give what's left of me so he can fill his life with more, pls...

My uncle (youngest of my mom's siblings) was just diagnosed with stage 4b lung cancer at 55. Their dad died of various cancers at 59. My mom is turning 60 this year. My grandma just went thru her (technically 3rd) second heart surgery because the arrhythmia isn't totally controlled by a pacemaker.