♱ .o2-T

When I’m at my lw everything I want comes true. I am happy, I am confident, I’m focused, life has meaning. I ruined it. I ruined everything and now I have to start again I’m trying to romanticize it. It’s getting harder and harder. I hate that I did this to myself, and I only have myself to blame.

I have a huge university presentation coming up. So many people are relying on me. I’m supposed to have finished it by now. But I’m laying in bed. Sad about the fact that I’m fat. I don’t believe people when they say skinny doesn’t make you happy. Because when I’m at my lowest I am perfect.

it gets to a point to where I don’t wanna do anything. I can’t do homework because I’m fat and ugly. I can’t hang out with friends because I’m fat and ugly. I can’t make music because I’m fat and ugly. I can’t take pictures, I can’t go to castings, I can’t play video games cuz I’m a loser.

The thing is everyone expects me to be there. Everyone keeps encouraging me to do it. Your looks don’t last forever. your body and bone structure don’t last forever so there’s really a limited time for me to get it together. I’m so mad at myself. i’m so mad. #edsky #ed #skinny #edtwt #thin

The worst part about it is I keep saying this is the year. This is the year. I’m gonna pursue my dreams when I get to my lw everything will be fine. I can do all that I want. I’ve been like what? Over a decade? was so thin and perfect. #edsky #ed #skinny #ideserveskinny #thin #edtwt

i’ve been bingeing for 3 days. I feel like puking it all out even though it’s been months since I’ve done that and I don’t wanna go back. I feel huge. I was supposed to go to a model casting and I sabotaged myself. Which is something I’ve been doing for years. I get close and then I ruin it. #edtwt

i have been binging for the past 3 days.

rebrand is for tomorrow

some personal faves 🪞⭐️

#edtwt #edsky #thinspo

to have arms n waist this tiny is a dream..

i’m back. didn’t lose but i didn’t gain sooooo everybody clap

just wanna be skinny

💋

this or nothing

no, it’s really annoying and I don’t even care anymore. cuz this place is getting boring that’s why I keep leaving and going back to Twitter. Twitter is having sick POV’s of sick disordered shit that literally triggered me into fasting. I’m over here feeling the urge to be body positive. likeeeee NO

chest heavy, throat raw, and my breath stank. they said nothing tastes as good as skinny feels and i’ve been wanting it to feel good for so many years. i live my life in brief moments of euphoria next hours of torment. is this what it takes to be a woman? i am a girl. immature and wasteful.

ya. it’s anxiety

i feel you

time to end things

#thinspo #edtwt #edsky #thin #skinny #ugw

i’m tired of you bitches being nice. this place is getting weak. Post some triggering ass shit and let’s get this platform poppin.

getting skinny again, hits like heroin

lost 1 singular kg this week 🤣

#thinspo #edsky #edtwt #thin #skinny

#thinspo #edsky #edtwt #thin #skinny

protein, healthy fats and fibre. #skinny december off to a great start. #edsky #edtwt

i bought soooo much healthy food. ready to get shit together!!!!

i’m back. thinking about fixing my life, like always