maggie ♛

where was this energy

i’m going to surgically remove my thigh fat at home diy style

spoiler it was me but WHY DID NO ONE STOP ME

genuinely who the fuck let me get fat

no bc genuinely i got so fucking fat id rather be dead than have my wedding at my current weight

so stressed about my wedding that i can barely eat maybe i’ll lose the weight i gained last year

i’ve always been an avid running hater but i fear i think i want to take up running

google how can i go from bmi 21 to bmi 17 in 3 months asking for a friend

fiance has the flu and tbh i am just hopinggggg i also get it bc ive been overeating like crazy i just want to lose my appetite for a couple day

i probably should weigh myself but i am #scared

anyways… have not gotten my shit together but i really need to

already crashing out from not having tik tok this is so bad for me the amount of times i’ve tried going on the app since it’s gone dark is genuinely concerning

i just don’t want her to be mad at
me :/

but tbh i didn’t really even know the details of the thing she’s getting flamed for besides like… the surface level of things so i feel like i can’t really say much on the matter anyway and also i feel like saying anything is just adding to the fire but idk maybe i am in the wrong

for context she’s getting flamed for something that happened over a year ago that people took out of context and blew out of proportion and although i’ve been ranting about it on my private/close friends i haven’t publicly defend her and i think she’s mad about it

i think one of my friends is mad at me 😓

good evening holidays are over it’s officially time for operation starvation

terrible business practice tbh. it i can’t help but consider it

TW

at my big age i’m fully aware of the risks and side effects of certain things but atp my depression/bpd/other bad thoughts just makes me just want to start purging idk

what is the science behind whenever i start ⭐️ving myself again that i have the urge to just get drunk all of the time i feel like my brain is sabotaging itself bc alcohol has a lot of calories

whatever high protein low cal is the game now

it’s absolutely horrendous that in order for me to be 95lbs by the end of april i need a calorie deficit of like 750 like that’s fucking aggressive

officially on the 10k steps/1000 calories/pilates (almost) every day grind

been ia bc ive eaten like shit since thanksgiving 💔

pemdas is drinking 2 cups of tea whenever you eat anything

it was!! thank you so much 💕

god i hope so 😭

still gonna omad my birthday dinner tho

choosing peace today by not weighing myself on my birthday 😌

i’m literally not able to eat anything without gaining i’m fucking over it