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I’ve been off this app being a fa1lure as usual. I can’t get myself together. I fear this b1nge cycle won’t stop for a while and I really don’t know what to do

-3 p0unds in 5 days and I’m not sure how I feel about that

When you know you let yourself go but someone else points it out— is a different type of hurt

It’s 6:30 in the morning… can’t I fkn fall asleep already jfc

😳.. uhh no tf you don’t and be careful what you wish for

On the bright side. I didn’t b1nge today. I f4sted 19 hours, and I had this 🌮 salad and a d1et c0ke for ~600c and started another f4st.

Same ): I rely on them and my blankies to help me but here lately I’m not safe anywhere and my body is on high alert. Not even taking baths are helping 😣 idk what to do anymore. I’m sorry you’re struggling too love, I hope it gets easier/better 🫂🩶

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Crazy how my fam1ly won’t listen or help me in extreme desper4te times but they’d sure fkn cry at my funer4l and act like they did everything they could while I was al1ve

Oh my, yeah he’s bad but not so bad that he lost j0bs etc. he doesn’t spend m0ney on it but the ly1ng about it and the fact he c0mments is what really gets me 😣

He sure is. And I stupidly believed him thinking these last couple years was different cause for awhile I didn’t see anything. Today, I didn’t go out of my way to look at his h1story, I was applying to a j0b and seen the search bar h1story and that led to me l00king 😣🔫

Tysm love 🩶🫂 today I’m trying harder than yesterday, trying to f4st for at least s1xteen hours which works out well if I wait to e4t when my bf gets h0me from w0rk and I’ll have to make us d1nner

I would assume it’s you not f1ltering your words or the p1ctures you p0st— sucks though, I’m sorry it for taken down again. Are you on eedeetwt ? There you’re more fr33 in what you post without f1ltering anything

I fa1led today.
I have high hopes for tomorrow being better though— 🥺🤞🏼

FFR 😭

I’m having a hard time trying to think of my c limit rn since i b1nged so bad for 2 months— I don’t want to make it worse I just don’t know what I should set it to. I’d like to gradually lessen it but idk 😭😭😭🥺😣

i hate calories

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Omfg I just looked up how many c are in this little pack of cr4ckers so I can plan my D1nner/0mad and 😳😱🤯 there’s 300 fkn c in 1 pack and I was eating 2 packs thinking I was fine during my m1ndless b1nge the last 2 months …
Well that’s fkn great wtf do I plan now 🧍🏻‍♀️

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D4y 1 no b1nge:

The f00d n0ise is crazy

Merc4ri cause the b1gf00t sq1shm4llows are hard to find in person if I’m being honest 🥺 her name is fe4ther the b1gf00t cl0wn, I hope you can find her 🫶🏼🩶 I coll3ct the b1gf00ts— they’re my favvvvv 😭

Gonna 💤 with this ton1ght cause I’m feeling like 🤡🤡🤡 rn

W1nter is a really hard time for me— I’ve been through a lot of tr4uma in gener4l but n0v-d3c are THE W0RST..

Trying to be e4sy on myself but I’m so ups3t I let myself sp1ral this long— I was out of c0ntrol and knew it but still made no eff0rts to 🛑😣

I need to seriously get it right this time.

So I w/i and I’ve ga1ned 23 p0unds since 11/O1 🥲 I’m ready to start my restr1ct cycle and hopefully keep it that way— no b1nging.

I feel so defe4ted.. I hate this 🔄 but it’s time to 🔒 tf in 😈👹

St0p not st0ry 🤣 **
Idk I 🙏🏼 it’ll help me get the v1tamins and the 0mad I’m going to try and make small port1oks for myself but more pr0tein and see if it helps 😭😖

I think once I go to the st0re again imma get d0uble fru1t so I can have this + 1 me4l and see how it goes as far as h3lping me st0ry b1nging. I look f0rward to fru1t at night while I w4tch something and I c00k everyday so my bf has something for his D1nner/lvnch the next day for w0rk so 🥲🤞🏼let’s see

But tbh I think imma start putting myself in the sp0tl1ght and actually say what I b1nged and see if I get so ash4med that I fkn stop 👀

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I just b1nged so bad if I told y’all I’m afraid I would be bl0cked 😭 at least some of it was healthy but not when you b1nge the other stuff 😖😣

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4 in the morn1ng time to put on c4rtoons and go to sleep 🛌

next time I go to s4ms clvb imma get that bl4nkie I’ve been wanting for months 👀 r1cky when I catch you 🏃🏻‍♀️

Ty 😣😖 you’re so sweet for saying this tbh 🥺🫶🏼 it’s so hard to feel that way fr.. I know I’m the reason I stay in this endless cycle and it’s so miserable. I think I’m hard on myself cause I wasn’t always this way and it’s frustrating not being like I used to with an4/m1a

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Here you go bestie 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼✨